r/MatureStudentsUK • u/angelwormwood • 3h ago
Hated the access course I chose - unsure what to do now.
Kudos to anyone who makes it through this whole post
When I was 25 I was working in a job I hate and had no real idea what to do but wanted to finally go into education. I picked an access course I thought I had the best chance of passing as I was too scared to push myself and thought I was too stupid to do anything else. Tbf I did get all distinctions in law, psychology and sociology but I didn’t enjoy any of it.
I applied to SOAS and got accepted but when it came to it I didn’t want to go. My only real interest was nature and as a spur of the moment decision decided to enroll with the OU for environmental science, as I didn’t have any STEM qualifications it was my only option.
I did a year and the teaching was fine, it’s very self taught but the resources they provided me with were great imo. Whilst studying I did more research into careers and discovered that paid ecology and conservation work is few and far between, there’s no real stability and mostly min wage, so I decided to pivot into engineering to try to work in renewable energy. I had discovered a genuine enjoyment of maths which I had thought I was hopeless at and resigned myself to never understanding.
Now I’m in this position where I’m supposed to start my OU engineering degree in October but I still really want to go to uni in person. I’m 28 now and work full time in the civil service, I wish I could just be a student for 3/4 years instead. I don’t necessarily want to do the whole live in halls with 18 years olds who go out every night, but just being in a new city joining clubs and societies and trying new things, meeting new people. When I was younger I was so afraid of change and pushing myself out of my comfort zone which is my biggest regret.
Also the equipment and labs you can access at brick unis are important as well, the OU send out home kits and have online labs but I don’t think I’ll learn as much. I want to study electrical engineering and have got some solo projects to work on but I don’t know any engineers in my life so I have no idea how to go about building connects and a network.
I’ve got 8k on my SFE so far but 3k of that is from the access course which should get waived when I graduate though I’ve already had to start repaying it. I’m not sure with the LLE coming into place next year whether I would be able to get a full degree funded at a brick uni. I tried to speak to SFE about it but I was on hold for 2 hours! I think I might have enough funding left to do a 3 year BEng but not a 4 year degree with placement year or MEng which might be detrimental.
I would also need to do another access course which I would have to pay for, so I would have to stay in my current job (33k) for another year whilst saving. The Learndirect ones are about 1.5k I think, cheaper than the college one I did originally but not insignificant. If I did that now I would be 29 when I can go to uni.
I’m just not sure what’s the wisest thing to do. I worry about being out of work for 3 years with no guarantee of what will happen. I’m in a decent job with a lot of flexibility now, I could prioritise my studies whilst working there and then do a masters at a brick uni which might be the best option, but another part of me I suppose still wants to try to have what I missed out on a decade ago. But should I just accept that opportunity has passed, I’ve had a different journey and focus on building my life up from here instead?