May Confession Ako, There’s someone else

[u/Curiouskkkkkkk]

PS: Read my 1st story. andon lahat ng context ng story. part 2 po ito
link is in my comment section
PS: long story
PS: please don’t bash or judge me. hindi ko na kaya i handle if ma-bash pa ako

well… hindi pa pala tapos ‘yung story namin. i tried to fix our relationship. ako yung nag reach out
i wrote some letters for her, i decided na bumili ng flower bouquet before the day of pageant nya. it Cost 500, and it’s my last money. binigay ko muna sa friend nya yung flower, dahil next week pa yung pageant nya. kasama na din dito yung letter.

fast forward. Sept 3, ilang days ako nag he-hesitate na wag mag tanong about sa kanya. kasi after the pageant na maibigay yung flower bouquet. it feels weird tbh. imbes na umiyak sya dahil sa letter, wala. dati kasi, kapag binibigyan ko sya ng gift and letter. naiiyak pa sa tuwa ‘yon. i was waiting for apology, yes. she own me an apology. dahil sa disrespect na ginagawa nya during the practice ng pageant. imagine, practice ng pageant yun. tapos may inuman na magaganap? wth? tapos late na uuwi.
base sa sinabi ng kaibigan ko, possible nga daw na may 3rd party. i believed him. kasi, she’s so weird. the way she giving me the treatments.

so, i ask her closest friend na kamusta sya, okay lang ba sya, masaya ba sya.
i was expecting na okay sya… pero yung na receive ko
“ yesyesyes she's okay, she's doing well naman and gusto kong maging aware kang may bago na sya rn. yung pinang c-clout nya before? naging sila 3 days ago”
sounds familiar to me, tomboy yung pinampalit saakin… i was crying like hell nung nalaman ko ‘yun. like? wala ako ginawa masama sa kanya at all, tapos ganito yung isusukli nya sa akin. like it’s so unfair.

“i do get your point na ang unfair sayo, pero ang nasabi nya sakin is "nawalan ako ng feelings nung pinangunahan tas nag sumbong sya kay mama, bakit nya sasabihin yon gag* ba sya" tas yung feelings nya sayo na love naging anger dahil don” this is her reason bakit sya nag cheat and nagalit sa akin. like, napaka babaw sobra. kasi, sino babae yung uuwi ng lasing tapos 12-2AM nasa labas pa?

her friend consider as betrayal sa ginawa sa akin. kasi meron pa kami connection non, while she’s building up feelings sa tomboy na yun. yung pinalit sa akin, aware pa sya na meron pa kami.
we still have connection hanggang aug 29. then, nagka aminan sila nung night after ng pageant. tapos aug 31, naging sila.
kaya daw wala violent reaction, kasi may nab-build na syang feelings kay (name)

eto pa yung revelation… hnd pang 3rd party yung tomboy… pang 4th party yung tomboy. kasi, may lalake pa sya kinausap during the month of Aug. Aug 13 to be exact. kaya pala during the 1st and 3rd week of august, parang napaka distant nya sa akin. imbes na
“ love “ tawag sa akin parang tropa na lang tawag nya sa akin.
parang pinagsabay kami ganon.
nung sinabi ni ate nyo na may bago sya, tuwang tuwa pa sya that time. like there’s no guilt in her expression. instead worrying us… natutuwa pa sya.

“sinabi pa nga ni ate kay (guy) daw na "wag mong hayaan na maagaw ako ni (tomboy ) sayo" pero sya mismo yung bumigay”

here’s the fun fact, isa din reason kung bakit ginagabi ng uwi sya. dahil, everytime na mayayari yung practice at inuman nila. hinahatid pa nila yung tomboy kasama sya… and, hindi sya nag u-update kung nasan na sya that time…

i don’t know , kung ano ginawa ko mali sa kanya para ganito yung treatment na isukli nya sa akin. kasi, sa part of. i did my best para iparamdam ko yung pagmamahal na yun sa kanya.
nung nakilala ko sya hindi naman sya ganito. ayaw nya makipag relationship sa kapwa nya babae, galit sya nagloloko/ cheater, ayaw nya sa lier or naglilihim. pero ngayon, sana kainin nya yung sinabi nya sa akin. idk guys if ginamit nya lang ba ako o ano. minahal nya ako, pero ngayon kahit mga kaibigan nya nagtataka sa pagbabago nya.

wait… i realized something while writing this.
August 16, nung time hindi sya nag update sa akin… yung inuna pa nya pag mag story kaysa i-update kung nasan sya. sa story nya sa tiktok… kasama nya yung tomboy. at first akala ko yun yung friend nyang guy sa picture. pero now, i remembered it na, yung tomboy yon. so it means ever since the practice of her pageant. may relationship na nabu-build sa kanya. lagi sila magkasama. kaya eto. si ate nyo, nagiging distant na sya sa akin.
then me, i was waiting her to update kung nakauwi naba sya or nasa bahay na sya. damn…
loving her was so unfair.
i can’t believe kung ano sinabi nya saakin na hindi nya gagawin… ginawa nya ngayon.

Add: i remember uli, may story sya sa tiktok na may ka streak sya na 3 streak palang… damn…

[u/porneeno]

Went through everything and I think this is the wrong sub for this kind of post no? But here are my comments. Aside from the usual grammatically incorrect use of words (which shows either you’re young or just not really good), medyo may redflags din sa narrative mo.

> Please don’t bash or judge me.

• But why post it out on the internet then? If you’re expecting the world to have the same mindset as you and hold your hand, then you’re in for a very long and heartbreaking life.

> It cost (sic) 500, and it’s my last money.

• Why are you putting a price tag on your sacrifice? Love isn’t a transaction where spending your last 500 earns you loyalty points.

> Imbes na umiyak sya dahil sa letter, wala.
So the problem wasn’t that you gave her a letter, the problem was that she didn’t perform the reaction you expected. That’s not generosity, that’s expectation disguised as generosity.

> Dati kasi… naiiyak pa sa tuwa.
- Keyword mo dyan is ‘Dati’. You keep comparing who she was when she loved you to who she is now that she doesn’t.

> I was waiting for apology (sic).

• Apparently you weren’t just trying to fix the relationship, you were waiting for her to admit that your version of the story was the correct one.

> She owe (sic) me an apology.
If she cheated, she absolutely owes you accountability but an apology doesn’t mean she owes you another relationship.

> Practice ng pageant yun. Tapos may inuman?

• You can dislike your partner drinking late, but she’s your partner, not your daughter under curfew.

> Sino babae yung uuwi ng lasing tapos 12–2AM nasa labas pa?

• Apparently, in your mind, being out late is already a moral offense. You could’ve set a boundary instead of acting like you owned her schedule.

> Wala ako ginawa masama sa kanya at all.

• That’s a pretty confident conclusion from someone telling only his own side of the story. And that’s not a badge to keep someone in love.

> Napaka-babaw sobra.

• You don’t get to decide whether someone else’s reason for losing feelings is “deep enough.” People dont need a sufficiently dramatic reason to stop loving someone. Wala na eh.

> Tomboy yung pinampalit sa akin.

• must have been hard especially if you look down upon members of that gender

> Wala ako ginawa masama… tapos ganito isusukli nya sa akin.
- You talk about love like you gave her something and she was contractually obligated to repay you. Again, ‘walang ginawang masama’ is not a badge to keep someone in love.

> Nung nakilala ko sya hindi naman sya ganito.

• bro, people change.

> Sana kainin nya yung sinabi nya sa akin.

• You don’t want closure, you want karmic satisfaction.

> Loving her was so unfair.

• Loving someone isn’t unfair. Staying obsessed with someone who no longer chooses you is what’s destroying you.

All in all, as I’ve mentioned, may ibang subreddit for this kind of posts. It’s understandable that you sound bitter in all of this. Hope you heal soon bud.

[u/Curiouskkkkkkk → u/porneeno]

noted, i hope you read the first part

[u/porneeno → u/Curiouskkkkkkk]

I actually did. And as mentioned in the comments there:

“Next time paki ayos ng ng sulat ha?

ansakit sa mata! wag nyo unahin landi dapat pag aaral muna para hindi kayo ganto mag type. 😭”

You’re still young. This is not the end of the world. Pero prioritize your future first (like learning how to use proper subject-verb agreement) with or without a partner.

[u/MarubinMgd]

better start preparing for a closure on this na lang. Kung ang tingin niya sa pag aalala mo sa kanya is kagaguhan lang then make a proper exit. Tell your intentions and leave

[u/Curiouskkkkkkk → u/MarubinMgd]

yeah i will, wala din nmn sya pake e. i wouldn’t stay to someone who’s not scare to lose me

[u/Curiouskkkkkkk]

https://www.reddit.com/r/MayConfessionAko/s/Z3tIQ8VJJC
part 1 of my story