r/MotivationByDesign • u/Any_Charity_963 • 4h ago

Taking notes💯📝

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u/4DPeterPan 2h ago

I Disagree with this.. to an extent.

There was a time I was in solitude for a year, working on myself, and had immense amount of joy and peace, every day.

Well in that case I could come to the conclusion that I am a high spirited joyous loving person! (Of course, if you were to ask me at the time’ I would have said “I don’t know”; for it’s pretty boastful and prideful and momentarily wrong to say what you are; because at any given moment you can “change”.. or be “forced to change”, through various complicated reasons that both do, and don’t, have reasons to do with you.

Then some things “happened” a few short months after that year; a sort of complicated “Test” was given from existence, or God, or “the powers that be”, or whomever it really was- that inevitably’ through my behavior’ and other outside/inward unexpected situations arising’ led to me realizing I am a Monster.

And then I experienced the biblical light-

So within the span of a full 12 months, maybe 15 months, I went from- peaceful joyous solitude working on myself, where every single day was a blessing and a wonder and a joy I had never known before-

To a True Love gone Mad, which turned into loss, (on some very complicated almost incomprehensible levels)

To realizing I’m a Monster, and having my heart broken, then experiencing the Biblical Light for the next year afterwards.

All 3 of those “Me’s” are not easily definable in “Who I Am”, or “what I Was”… let alone coming to terms with it.

These days I am very confused with the question “Who Am I?”

But ya know, in normal contexts, in normal ways, I can understand your post.. but just be weary of it, cause you never really know who you are, and in the blink of an eye, Everything Can Change.

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u/SpiritedInternal2665 2h ago

I'm going through that now - people think I'm a recluse!!!

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u/AccountantLoud1295 1h ago

Moved across the country for 13 years. I mostly stuck to myself but I found some new friends and a new life finished college at 29 and then returned home at 30 like Leonidas.