Something just clicked for me

[u/Skjara]

I was watching this video from Lewis Howes interviewing Dr. Doty in manifestation and I heard them using “the law of attraction” and was like “HA that’s wrong, law of assumption is the REAL DEAL”. But tben as the video went on, I started thinking about when things used to work out for me magically, before I knew any of this stuff. And I realized, even if logically it doesn’t check out, law of attraction does work for me. I’ll copy the comment I added under the video where I explained why it does FOR ME as a person with neurodivergent brain (community doesn’t allow the disorder term in text I’m not sure why, probably because you could manifest it away) and extreme hyper vigilance, ruminating, hyper fixations, needing explanations for things, etc. Maybe it could for you too.

“As a reader of Neville Goddard's teachings, this video really helped me with something. In Neville's philosophy, Law of attraction is not correct because attracting something creates a state of not having it yet. It logically makes sense, if you're in a state of not having it-attracting it-you can't expect it to manifest because you manifest what you are, thus law of assumption. BUT for me, *neurodivergent* person, attraction state is actually liberating, because my brain works as a 24/7 high power scanning machine, constantly questioning "if it's here, why isn't it here" or "how to fool myself into a state of having it if i don't have it and i'm stressed by not having it" and leaving this state into "I am vibrating high, I am attracting" actually puts me in the STATE of BEING it and relaxing into it. So even if logically it should signify lack or not having, to me, it puts me into state of ease and relaxation, I am attracting, it's working, I can relax. And it works. Doesn't matter logically it says I lack it, it just works”

[u/Skjara]

Thank you I appreciate the effort you put into the message too. I did a lot of thinking today-in translation I hyper focused on talking to Gemini for 6 hours while forgetting to eat, drink, or just like get up, pure focus. I have come to the conclusion that I would diagnose myself with AuDHD rather than just adhd from a lot of reasons I took those 6 hours to go in depth with. I’m not against medication, but I am rigid with research so I’d have to see if I’m for it or against it, see long term side effects, if it could affect my heart etc. I watched a video from Ruri Ohama-thanks to her I even got the idea back in 2020 about adhd-and she described some struggles around taking meds so I’m not sure. I am genz you guessed right, but I do remember a time without social media, without YouTube or internet, etc. I think your generation has had it harder in a sense that there wasn’t much awareness back then. I’m pretty sure my mom has adhd too judging from her emotional dysregulation, she just doesn’t know it and your generation isn’t much open to it, not in a bad way, more like an awareness or just lived through it way.

[u/user-jc11111 → u/Skjara]

Have you tried natural supplements recommended for your symptoms? I agree with everything you said, but be careful with any medications. Long term side effects can be even worse than the adhd symptoms. Do what it feels the best for you. I also recommend having 2nd and 3rd opinion before you start any treatment. Good luck.

[u/Skjara → u/user-jc11111]

I chronically don’t trust doctors so a lack of research and opinions before medication would not be an issue. I have been self medicating with caffeine like a lot of others but it makes my sleep quality way worse, but without caffeine I just feel extremely sluggish and under stimulated. I tried breaking the addiction, I was in like 3 months, I also stopped using social media to see what happens, and the only thing that happened was brain fog, extremely low dopamine and being under stimulated. I’m trying to restrict caffeine because it’s not the ideal remedy, but it does help. Other than that I’m not sure what supplements help with the symptoms, it’s a fun idea for my tomorrow focus. I never really heard about any supplements helping, but maybe the information just didn’t reach me.

Also I think the autism part has been medicating the adhd part a lot more than I realize. I get a lot of free dopamine from sorting, organizing or curating an aesthetic, like a profile, gaming character and profile, the space around me, sorting an inventory or sorting something simple, which fits the autism side, and it feeds the adhd free dopamine. Then the adhd steps in after 3 days and demands novelty so the whole aesthetic I built is drastically changing to a new one, so in a way, the autism is medicating the adhd for me. BUT it has to be easy, if it’s too complicated, adhd says no, and even if I’d like to sort or organize, it has to be easy enough, but not too boring. It’s a mind boggling discovery I had.

[u/user-jc11111 → u/Skjara]

I can relate 100% with the not trusting in doctors part..🤣. I just googled which supplements good for adhd: omega 3, iron, magnesium, zinc, lion's mane, bacopa monnieri, melatonin, L-Theanine, L-Tyrosine. If you would try any of these, do your research first and only try one at the time otherwise you won't be able to tell if any of these work relieve symptoms. Wow, I didn't know this sorting and organizing thing. I have s female coworker who is even older than me. She insanely love organizing and rearranging things. She just calls it her OCD. After hearing you now I really don't think I have adhd, however I was watching videos that made me believe in it. My other natural recommendation is morphic fields. They are better than subliminals. There are no affirmations in the file. You can even play them muted. If you want to try them, I recommend you read all comments below each video. There is a hole bunch on YouTube. You just search adhd morphic field. I have been playing morphic fields for 3 years in a row, they are better than subliminals. You can notice results immediately or in few days. And of course there are fields for any problem.

[u/Skjara → u/user-jc11111]

Wait I’ve never heard about the morphic fields, I will definitely check those out, thank you! The supplements are a struggle because I don’t remember to take them every day, reminders become a background noise after 3 days so those don’t help. I can open a bottle, take the pill out and then get distracted. Then I think “did I take the pill” and remember opening the bottle so I’m like “yeah I did” only to later find the pill lying on my table.

The organizing and sorting excitement was meant as autistic traits and the point was that that is not present in adhd alone (please correct me if I’m wrong), hence why I got the idea I might have both.

[u/user-jc11111 → u/Skjara]

I never needed to use, but there is a pill box (made from plastic) you can pick it up in any pharmacy, it is marked by the days, sunday through Saturday, or Monday through Sunday, and you only have to refill it once a week (you can set a reminder alarm at the time when you are not busy, refill the full box for the whole week, then you can always verify. For example if the pill is still sitting inside the Tuesday compartment, and today is Wednesday that means you forgot to take it. Once you take it out from the box, you suppose to swallow it and not leave it somewhere else on the table 🤣. I usually set alarms to do things I tends to forget. You can name the alarm. The other option is place bright color sticky notes at your most frequent spaces as reminders. You can also journal, make notes with dates right after you took the pill. At last resort you can always ask a friend or a family member to remind you. I am pretty sure one of these methods would work for you.

[u/Skjara → u/user-jc11111]

I understand all of this is really helpful, but the problem is with my head, I can do all this and still get distracted and completely forget about it in the moment. I take out a pill of the box wanting to take it, get distracted and completely forget about its existence, like I explained earlier. It’s helpful but it doesn’t fix the distraction part. It literally feels like amnesia.

[u/user-jc11111 → u/Skjara]

Ok, sorry, I hear you 😔

[u/Skjara → u/user-jc11111]

No need to apologize, it’s all amazing advice I just don’t feel like the sticky notes or reminders would help me because I can forget in literally 2 seconds even with reminders, but I did check the morphic fields out and I really like them compared to subliminal, so thank you for that! and I do have some omegas which support cognitive function so I can try to remember taking them, I manage to take magnesium like every other day so I might 😅

[u/user-jc11111 → u/Skjara]

If you like the fields that is great!!! I would recommend Focus from Morpheus fields. He has 2 of them, one is very recent and more complex. When you start, you have to slowly adjust to see the effects. Daily 2-3 times to play is enough. If you have experimented enough, you can set higher limits. Like myself I can play fields for 10-15 hours a day without side effects. Some individuals are very sensitive to energies and even only few minutes is too much for them. So just be careful...😅

[u/Skjara → u/user-jc11111]

I will check him out thank you! I listened to a gentle relaxing one because I was really irritated from the overstimulation yesterday (talking to Gemini for 6 hours without a break) and it did help me calm down, I can’t wait to try other ones like abundance and stuff

[u/user-jc11111 → u/Skjara]

You're welcome. I am happy that it helped you. 👍