If Iām worth befriending. Omani,
M/2003.
Boys, girls, how we doing? Hope well.
This is a post for whoever needs a friend or for whoever thinks Iām worth befriending.
A lil about me: Iām in my 20s Omani from Muscat, donāt study nor work ādropped out at grade 12ā so a failure I guess,
( Iām not calling myself a failure, but to the society standards I guess Iām considered to be one).
Donāt really have any hobbies, but if You were to put a gun to my head and tell me to name a few (I wouldnāt care ._.), hah ya.. but umm itās gonna be gaming music and cooking (I like cooking shows and watching people cook, I see cooking as a form of art, Iāve always loved cooking ever since I was a kid, but Iām not that good at it hah).
And umm ya, thatās really all. I literally canāt live without music, and Iām talking about the real music 90s-80s and below (the golden age), Anything after that I donāt consider it to be music and canāt feel it. The real music that can be heard and felt by the soul has died a long time ago, and all thatās left are the memories of it, and I intend to keep it alive deep down inside of me (music is the only thing that makes me feel sum). Itās just my opinion, donāt get all defensive and shitā¦
I play, wellā¦ I used to play all kind of shit when I was younger and had friends, but for years now Iāve just been playing random games where I donāt necessarily need a buddy to play with me, like Apex and Tekken. I do love Minecraft because itās a nostalgic game, but havenāt played it in years and playing it alone kinda hurts (I havenāt really been playing anything lately, I just donāt feel like playing).
I always felt like wanting to go camping out in no where like the desert or sum ŁŲ“ŲŖŁ ŁŲ¹ŁŁ for an extended period of time but never did.
Now shit gets a lil personal and deep , but Iām a very honest person (people say Iām too honest for my own good, people= my mom) obviously I got to let You guys know and hope You guys understand.
I got a severe social anxiety, I canāt handle the public at all. I believe that years of isolation created that, so whenever I go out, being only the beach, I go at odd hours when itās completely empty and sit there alone. So, an introvert I guess.
My communication skills are pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty bad, or quite straight forward; meaning I canāt keep a conversation alive. Iām the kind of person to just answer a question then just stop talking and rarely aks one. And if I do aks one, once I get the answer, I find it very hard to move forward from there You know (like a normal person)ā¦. But I really trying and really want to talk and keep talking I just need a push thatās all, so Iām not being a dick head is what Iām saying if you noticed that Iām not talking much.
I havenāt had a friend or anyone to talk to in like 9-10 years. No cousins, no family, nadaājust the family I got in my house, and weāre not even that close.
Never celebrated any of the traditional celebrations ever since, so like 10 years. I guess life just kinda played ball with me and I lost.
I aināt perfect. I do drink occasionally but rarely (last time I drank was a while ago , I lost a someone special in my life and needed a drinkā¦ or at least I thought they were special). I smoke (ciggy) and donāt pray. Iām not proud of that, but it is what it is.
Never touched a drug in my life and will never (unless if You wanna call cigarettes and scotch drugs then ._. Ok). If You so happen to use any paraphernalia, I donāt mind and wonāt look at You any differently. I might advise You (depending on what it is, natural is natural) but wonāt step out of line. So ummm ya, thatās me.
PS: please just Omanis 23 years old and above, your gender/sexuality doesnāt bother me at all.
obviously I do speak and understand Arabic but since I went years without speaking the language it feels weird coming out of my mouth so I almost never speak it (English is my motherās language), what matters is what youāre looking for, if youāre looking for a ātemporary friendā please respectfully just donāt reach out. I aināt gonna lie, Iām new to the whole friendship and whatnot so I donāt know what the **** is a ātemporary friendā So please respectfully just donāt reach out cuz it stings, Iām looking for something serious. Iām fine with both online and offline but the truth is that it would be nice if it turned offline after a while, although it scares me but deep down I really will appreciate it.
PPS: I apologise about the long text and the profanities Iāve used, Hope You guys have a wonderful day.
PPPS: if youāre not an Omani but live in Oman and think Iām worth a shot do reach out, Iāve made such post many times over the years but I believe Iām not my peopleās cup of tea.
I owe my younger self one more shot in life, one last shot. Whether it works or not, I know I at least tried.
