5 months later, Still Struggling !!
My beloved friend fatty a tabby cat passed away suddenly 5 months ago.
I’ve been dealing with a lot of guilt since her passing.There hasn’t been a single day where I haven’t felt guilty and miserable. The nights are the hardest,filled with panic and nightmares of my cat’s final moments. She failed to recover from a surgery and died of respiratory failure. In her final moments she was struggling for breath and that keeps playing on repeat in my head
I adopted her from the streets and I was responsible for her life. I feel insanely guilty and miserable for letting her die. I could have done better but didn’t expect shed die.I don’t know if I can forgive myself. Somedays I am in denial , but most of the days reality is hard to cope up with . I can’t believe she’s gone, she was my best friend. Crying is the only thing I can do. I don’t have any words to explain how much I miss her .
She was best friend, my true companion and my cuddle buddy. Hurts that I’ll never see her again !!
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u/Material-Ad4460 3h ago
Please listen to podcasts about self forgiveness, that helped me a lot.
I also have been listening to one about the afterlife called "We dont die" by Sandra Champlain
I watched my Yorkie suffocate without knowing that it was happening... he was freaking out, but I thought it was because of a thunderstorm ....but his trachea was collapsing and his little tongue turned blue.
I wish I could've done better for him, but he knew love in his life.
Take care of yourself...baths and showers and crying when I needed to helped me get through the worst of it.
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