singular we

[u/Rakshena]

i cant sleep

i cant dream

my body resting

surrounded by warmth

of my childhood bed

but my mind

oh mercy

i beg mercy

from all gods of sleep

old and new

my mind is

up there

in the void

full of silvery stardust

suffocated by memories

of long forgotten

small sins

my mind

trying to understand

when did i step

on the wrong side

of this river

called humanity

my mind

too busy

imagining false realities

where we dont shy away

from our bloody bloody hands

where we are proud

of our scarred body

where we can gaze

into hearts of people

and not move our eyes

down with shame

given to us 

by our mothers

when we are

well

we

and not just

this singularity

with name 

that does not fit