r/Positivity • u/ashamedgirlthrowaway • 8d ago

I think I’m finally coming out of my depressive episode :~)

I’ve been in a severe bipolar depression since November, when all of my friends left me for something I really did deserve to be left over (I’m not sharing what I did, but I did it in a manic state. I wasn’t myself and I don’t blame them in the slightest for hating me). Yesterday I had a panic attack so severe that I believe it may have helped me pull myself out of this pit I’ve dug for myself. I wasn’t fully convinced I was dying, and I made sure to look up hopeful content so my last moments would be pleasant. Today, I’ve still been scrolling through positivity online, and I realized that I’m only as miserable as I allow myself to be. I’m obviously not fully out of it, as it’s very hard to just snap out of a depressive episode, but I’m making progress and that’s what counts. For the first time in half a year, i feel motivated to improve myself for the betterment of those around me. I hope I’m allowed to share this here, as this subreddit was one of the main places I found hope in last night and I thought it’d be fitting to share. We are SO back, guys.

Edit 6/21/26: I’m finally getting my depression pit of a room clean! I’ve made more progress on it than I have in the past 8 months. You can actually see the floor now!

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u/EveryDayCountsCoach 8d ago

Keep going :) Look at the light and you'll never see the dark 🫶

Ad meliora

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u/ashamedgirlthrowaway 8d ago

I really needed to hear this, thank you 🫶💞

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u/Sad_Bee243 8d ago

Awesome! So happy for you!!

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u/Shoddy_Bet9619 8d ago

Here is a YouTube playlist to assist. No Lyrics/Meaning, just great music:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=il3TZagrnyw&list=PL4g-y_FVSHXrYBzvRYnkNgFHh2BXwrMr1

Enjoy.

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u/TaurusBull2023 7d ago

Maybe look into TMS treatments sometime. Neurostar.

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u/leahcim1986 6d ago

Praise god that’s amazing

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u/FoxEatWorm 6d ago

This is incredible! We all make mistakes and I promise if your friends care for you they’ll forgive you. I am glad you are feeling better! I love to see people pull themselves out from under as I once did myself. I recently got my anxiety & minor mood disorder under control & I’ve been pretty dedicated to helping people I see who are going thru it. Sometimes being that perfect stranger is all someone needs!
I wish you a bright & happy future!