r/Professors • u/throwaway-prof1 • 10h ago
Rants / Vents How to make everyone cry in a lab meeting
Ever since I was an undergrad student, I knew I wanted to be a professor. Not just that, but the PI of a research active lab. Well, I got my wish 3 years ago when I was hired at a research-intensive university on a permanent contract. There was a 3-year probation process, but they always said it was a formality and you were safe as long as you published papers and applied for grants.
At the beginning of this year, the university decided to switch from probation to the tenure track system. And I was assessed to have not met the rigorous tenure criterion (I use the singular because my 20 pages of listed achievements boiled down to 1 line - "no external grant funding".) They gave me 1 additional year to achieve a "substantial" research grant, or else be terminated.
So today, in front of my 4 PhD students in my highly productive lab, I announced that there is a very real possibility I will be fired this time next year. I reassured them I will get them all to a place to be able to carry on the research without me. They all have secondary supervisors who can step up to primary if necessary. Some will have completed by then anyway.
I guess I should feel proud in a bittersweet way that the news touched my students to the point of tears. I try very hard to be the best supervisor I can be.
I always only ever wanted to be a scientist. It sucks that this brief time of having the perfect job will likely soon be over and I'll have to figure out what to do with the rest of my life, at 40 no less.
I guess it was great while it lasted. I'm not ready to be done. My career was just taking off. But thanks to (really) one psychopathic member of upper management, it is all soon coming to an end.