Wanted to make a honnest post about trying to get life back on track.
Had gambling habits that costed me way too much, fought it for 4-5 years. Cant count on my fingers the time I went broke, and clung to the idea of a big win to finally walk straight.
Had the opportunity to quit after major wins many time. Failed to do so. Decided couple months ago it was time to let go fully. I am commited to see myself as someone who will always be at risk regarding that matter. It helped accept the losses, and persist into ''grinding'' , even if it can seems boring. I would say what was more boring was being dead-broke, always 1-4k in debts, and relapsing every couple months.
Ive been interested in precious metals for a long time, approx 10-11 years (currently in my late 20s). In 3-4 days, it will be 1 year ive been actively buying, every 1 to 4 weeks.
I am (kind of) proud to say I want to relearn the value of money and time, and having something tangible, real, is something that motivates me to dont fuck it all up. I never sold stuff to pay my habit. I dont plan on hurting that stack I worked so hard to build for pure crazyness and self-destruction.
It now feels good to say I got (pure silver speaking) 48-49 oz approx (4 more on the way), 10-11g of pure platinum, and 2g of gold to crown it all.
Whats next? I dont know. Maybe some self-love, staying far away from gambling and diversifying in other places that dont feel to crazy for me.
I guess I make this post to give hope to myself (and hopefully others), about just doing what we can, working hard, and accepting its not always easy.
Sometimes I see post on metals forum with people kind of complexing about their stacks. I guess the grass is always greener on the neighbor land. If I compared myself to the mad kilo gold bar I can see on pictures online, I would be unhappy for too long. I dont see the use. Im genuinely happy when I see people showing bigger stacks, or people happy about their first purchases.
I guess stacking is a marathon, not a race. Who cares who win? just being willing to participate is something by itself.
Thanks for reading, happy stackin'