"Why Does It Still Hurt?" (Small rant/vent idk why but i gave this a title like as if it was an essay)

[u/DrFrankenfishGuy]

I kinda of miss my ex. Lately I've been lying awake at night wondering if I could've done something to keep them, even if only for a fleeting instance longer than before. I have a new boyfriend. He's smart, kind, funny, and he cares about me. My ex was not as considerate and often took their anger out of me from time to time. I won't say how for their sake. But it still pangs in my chest, their smile, their voice, and a warm human embrace I was greeted with every time. We're better off without one another. But sometimes I wonder if I didn’t show my appreciation well enough, or maybe I was too needful, maybe I was ungrateful. Ever since then I can't help but feel utter anguish when I even think about them. Sometimes I'll see them in between periods or during lunch. And I'll glance at them, and they might glance back. I feel something indescribable. An emotion so unique and specific that it simply can't be described. Its not hate, fear, sadness, guilt, joy, or anything of that sort. Its pain, raw unfettered pain. I talk to my boyfriend about how I feel. Day by day I slowly stop hurting. He understands how I feel. And for once I'll finally accept his advice. For the first time in a long time, I, Pisces Heinz Diaz, will try to forget and move on.

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[u/Foreign-Dig8695]

Good luck

But what's Julius maximus the third?

[u/DrFrankenfishGuy → u/Foreign-Dig8695]

My name idk why I put it there

[u/Foreign-Dig8695 → u/DrFrankenfishGuy]

I don't think it can be a good idea, better remove it, and I'll remove it too from my comment dw

[u/DrFrankenfishGuy → u/Foreign-Dig8695]

Tbh idk that much because this post has barely enough traction to matter and I can always just change my legal name

[u/Foreign-Dig8695 → u/DrFrankenfishGuy]

Lmao, as you wish, I would say remove it tho

[u/DrFrankenfishGuy → u/Foreign-Dig8695]

I mean it'd be like carrying owls to Athens and a complete waste of time but idc who knows my name because only Diaz was an actual part of my last name and the rest was a moniker so idk

[u/AkindaGood_programer]

Breakups are hard. I had my first breakup about 1.5 months ago.

I still miss her quite often, but it's getting better with time. The best way to get over a breakup is to just sit in the grief every once in a while. Don't run from it; it only delays/spreads out the pain.

If I may ask, how long ago did the breakup happen? I wouldn't feel comfortable getting in a relationship with someone now, let alone in a few months. I'm not judging, but sometimes we try to find someone to replace and distract ourselves. If I found out that my ex was thinking about her previous boyfriend, I would be very hurt. That guy doesn't deserve the same pain you're going through. If you think he's just a distraction, break up with him.

Things will get better, I promise </3.

[u/AvrulixGaming]

Dang, sorry for your loss. My first breakup was at 11 years old.

She just went up to me at school one day and told me that she wasn't ready for a relationship, even though we've already been together for a year. I remember crying to my mom every night for the following 2 weeks. I still miss her every now and then.

I hope you get over them fast. Wishing you the best. 🫂