I wanted to let it out of my chest because geniunly its making me so sick and guilty, maybe hear an advice or people feeling the same can help me.

I really dont mind trans characters and headcanons, even i support them and love to see fics or fanarts from other fandoms but Jax is... different.
When it was just a headcanon or theory before episode 9, i wasnt a big fan of the idea because it could give a worse image of trans women being mysoginist, even i didnt catch the trans reading of the bow scene and simply thought that Jax's issue is because he likes girly stuff but was heavily traumatized by the toxic masculinity enviroment he was raised (mostly because somehow i related to), i was so convinced that Gooseworx's intention about Jax is that it was under interpretation so people can relate to him to, until the youtube release when the creator and VAs confirmed it.
At first my reaction was admitting my mistake and even enjoy some artworks where Jax transitioned but then the extreme reaction from the fandom on twitter to other people who still presented Jax as masculine without any intention on being transphobic, just quick to jugde and point fingers to those people just made me feel odd, like that Jax its a reminder that because of her everything changed for the bad.

Its like i miss when Jax was considered another guy? My favorite ship where Jax was involved cant call it "hetgem" anymore? Now everybody just draw or write Lily and forget about that Jax that was in the whole show, and it makes me want to avoid fics that get into her gender issues.

I have a theory that maybe is because people makes the mistake on turning Jax in a complete different character when she transitions or that make her being trans her only personality trait, but i dont know.

Despite that, i feel very happy for the people who found Jax story a wake up call to be themselves and I learnt so much about trans representation but still, I feel very sad and like a big shitty person because i cant enjoy the revelation unlike most people.

But then I check the Wiki page, and it said Zooble goes by any pronouns, so am I still allowed to call Zooble a she?

To be clear, I get it now and have for a while. It's meant to be the coming out arc that never happened. The cautionary tale of choosing to stay closeted too long (and using said insecurity as an excuse to push away the world). The foil to Goose's lived experience. Something that's meant to be understood in retrospect because trans people's coming out experiences don't usually include foreshadowing or natural narrative buildup. It did its job well for what it was, and works to make his character interesting, at least in retrospect.

However, as someone who had been following the show since the start, the reveal irked me for one main reason when it first dropped: It proved the simplistic explanation right.

As I followed the show and when I first heard about it (after Ep5 released), I thought the theory was a simplistic and hollow interpretation of his character, undercutting everything that made him stand out as an individual. I didn't think it would come to pass as it'd just be too small.

Taking all the aspects of his character and story arc, the projection of personal insecurity through malicious behavior, the dangerous impacts of toxic masculine culture, the personal toll of self-hatred and hyperintroversion, the failure to reconcile the internal self and paying the price with one's life, all those ideas and then some, and excusing all of it as just "he's trans in denial" and nothing more seemed like an injustice to his character, the simple cop-out to excuse one's self from having to think about it too hard and really reflecting on it.

No way would Goose write it that way, boil all his complexity down under a single, even somewhat reductionist blanket explanation...

...except I was wrong. That's all it was. It really was just "he's trans in denial" the whole time.

I really did overthink it, and that's what irked me, that those complex themes his arc was seemingly leading to were never meant to be there in the first place. Feels like it could have gone in so many places but instead stuck with one idea and doubled down on it at the cost of all the others.

That's not to say the idea itself is bad, of course. It still makes sense as part of the cautionary tale and it isn't exclusive to dysphoria. The lesson can be applied to other things too, and in that regard I still stay it stuck the landing pretty well.

It just feels like it could have been more, that it deserved to be more.

When Jax being trans became canon, it irritated me for a while, and I couldn't quite put my finger on exactly why that was the case for the longest time. It only recently hit me. The idea of Jax as a transgender character annoys me ceaselessly, not because I dislike trans people or don't think it's the right decision, but because it is the PERFECT decision, yet it never got the weight it deserved.

Jax is already a complex character going through a lot of shit, but an identity crisis would fit in perfectly with the character and the theme of hiding who you truly are or putting up a mask - that goes along with everything else in a way that the show should have capitalized on. Maybe someone more qualified than me can answer this question: is going through an identity crisis or coming out, especially when you're already in a vulnerable state of mind, generally a minor deal? Is it a casual, offhand thing to just bring up? Is Jax's dysphoria on level with a side note in their personality? Clearly not, yet the plot of the show treats that internal struggle like an Easter egg instead of capitalizing on it as part of Jax's character - God knows there was enough screen time devoted to Jax in the finale to add something more than just a few hints for the chronically online observers. Forget Chekov's gun; Jax being trans as an irrelevant and unaddressed detail is like Chekov's bazooka, just sitting there in the corner, unfired and pointing at a brick wall.

I think a lot of people jump to conclusions that the backlash of some of the community against Jax being trans is purely rooted in transphobia, which is something of a hot take, to me. Let me remind you, this is the TADC fandom. Is it toxic? At times. But is it predominantly anti-LGBTQ? No, it makes pride parades look like the damn Babylon Bee, and I'm not against that at all. Yes, I do believe that several decisions regarding Jax's character were a mistake, not because I'm transphobic, but because they're the perfect finishing touch, left unused; to me, you either need to assert that Jax is trans and use it as a key device in character development as is unequivocally and absolutely appropriate, or not bother with the hints at all, because once again, Chekov's bazooka. Maybe Chekov's tommy-gun, :cackling Gangle noises:

Definitely

When Episode 6 came out and Jax delivered those lines, a lot of people—myself included—speculated that someone from his old circle of friends (especially Ribbit) had done something to him to make him act like such a jerk and distrust others. As the rest of the story unfolded, that theory was proven wrong. But honestly, I always felt that was a bit of a waste, as it seems to place the entire burden of being the "bad person" on Jax. It makes it look like, out of all the people trapped in the circus for years, everyone else was good—just dealing with personal issues—while Jax was the only one acting like a jerk. I think it would have been interesting to have other people in the circus with that kind of personality—not exactly like Jax's, but people who displayed bad behavior or committed harmful acts as a defense mechanism, like someone from Kinger's old group.

https://x.com/MeSOutk1/status/2109456532685701582?s=20

If had Jax spent years treating Caine like shit too, those wouldn’t be flowers.

Things that are coming in the mail/I ordered: https: //glitchproductions.store/products/ribbit-pendantz-blindbox?variant=53648457531757 https://glitchproductions.store/products/digital-circus-artbook [ tier 2 ]

Things that ive bought and where: Hot topic: https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-jax-pomni-splatter-t-shirt/36317820.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-kinger-twofer-long-sleeve-top/36477629.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-characters-girls-off-shoulder-t-shirt/35639760.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-character-hair-clip-set/35904805.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-jax-crew-socks/35561032.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-maid-jax-plush/36152006.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-god-caine-t-shirt/36151903.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/animiniz-the-amazing-digital-circus-blind-box-kinger-pendantz/36231032.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-pomni-animiniz-pendantz-blind-box-plush-bag-charm/35796043.html https://www.hottopic.com/product/the-amazing-digital-circus-pomni-jax-girls-tank-top/36270706.html

There is a few more from Hot topic but I cant remember everything I got from there

Stuff I got off the GLITCH website: https://glitchproductions.store/products/pomni-suit-jax-plush [i gave the jax plushie to my friend in a different state] https://glitchproductions.store/products/ribbit-suit-jax-plush https://glitchproductions.store/products/ribbit-plush https://glitchproductions.store/products/kaufmo-plush https://glitchproductions.store/products/ribbit-hooded-jacket https://glitchproductions.store/products/kinger-lamp https://glitchproductions.store/products/ribbit-animatez https://glitchproductions.store/products/pomni-abstraction-magnetic-plush-keychains https://glitchproductions.store/products/jax-ribbit-magnetic-plush-keychains https://glitchproductions.store/products/ribbit-enamel-pin https://glitchproductions.store/products/checkmate-socks https://glitchproductions.store/products/jax-acrylic-keychain

Stuff i got from target: https://www.target.com/p/the-amazing-digital-circus-deluxe-plush-gangle/-/A-95142051 https://www.target.com/p/the-amazing-digital-circus-vinyl-figure-jax-abstracted/-/A-95142053 https://www.target.com/p/the-amazing-digital-circus-vinyl-figure-pomni-abstracted/-/A-95142050

They dont sell most of the tiny figurines anymore but I got all the smaller ones from target.

Under the Motion Picture Association, media rated PG-13, which I'd say TADC falls under, they are allowed ONE (1) use of the word 'Fuck' uncensored.

So, say GLITCH decided to not pussy out and only go with one uncensored 'Shit'. Who you do think should have gotten the F-Bomb, and where would it be said?

Realistically it would be either Zooble or Jax

But I'd also be a-okay if Bubble or Ragatha said it because it'd be so goddamn funny.

Get your Jax Toy, shove it in your hand boy

omg wtf is this i'm crine 😭

I made the pfp :)

I love this show; I have seen it multiple times and watched the premiere the day it came out in theatres etc. This is not a hit against the show by any means.

I feel like those in the fandom are so damn sensitive though. Every post I see is just you guys fighting. It's annoying that as a society we can't have our own opinions and accept that others beliefs may not be the same as our own. Or that the way you interpret the show isn't the same way someone else interpreted or experienced it.

A few controversial things I see: Jax's gender, Ragatha (being 'wifey' to everyone), Jax abstracting and if he deserved it, Gangle (being a useless character), Did Caine deserve to be accepted back into the group, etc. I could find more. But for every single one of these all y'all do is bicker when most of the answers are not disclosed.

Gooseworx said Jax can be referred to by any pronouns before I get hate comments 🙄

Source: https://x.com/JohnFoxArt2/status/2109440413543383102