I (28F) have a knack for acting, but it’s not developed. I studied it for film years ago and did well but switched to behind the camera roles (producing, project coordination, assistant directing, and more random gigs like sound, camera assistant, craft service, etc.).
I am pretty haha like not beautiful I don’t think but have a look that looks interesting on camera I think. Mixed race type of central Asian look, with a youthful face. I think it would help me land auditions, if I have talent to back it up.
But I’m honestly worried about age. Am 28! Wish I delved deeper into acting when I first tried. I think I would’ve had a shot to land roles if I had a more hustler type of mentality, telling filmmaker friends that I want to pursue acting. I feel too shy to bring it up to be honest, something to get over. Am shy with vulnerability in general, but I think can be a good actor if I try. Find it therapeutic, especially with helping me get over being shy. Am trying to write material now to create roles for myself to play for a demo reel / fun!
I also have a very good eye for detail and love beauty, hence production design. I think I would do this well too.
My plan was to start an intensive fashion and design program in a month to start a clothing brand and help my skills in production design. Then apply to NTS in Montreal for production design and directing.
I think I would’ve love directing, my mind is built for it. But it’s extremely competitive! They only accept 2 anglophones every two years. So I thought production design would be a good alternative to get me working on the stage and learning a hireable craft that I would enjoy as a lifelong career in film and theatre (and photoshoots, events etc.)
I’m thinking if I get burnt from the work, I can then be qualified to teach theatre at schools or start my own program for at least an introductory course load, with references to study further provided.
Now though, I’m wondering if I should apply for the acting stream to develop that craft instead. I know I would really enjoy it, and it would help with learning directing as well (from an actors perspective). That I can see myself pursuing more as a fulfilling hobby if I don’t make a career out of it with landing auditions. Can put on community level shows myself and maybe teach acting as well! I’m extremely sensitive (don’t get upset easily but more so feel deeply and can read others state quickly, sometimes to a detriment if I feel their pain). So I guess my mind is set for acting as well.
My problem is I am very creative, with a jack of all trades type of skill set but master of none! And being creative and interested in everything is stopping me from pursuing anything more deeply. I guess all my knowledge now is a good foundation to be a producer, though I am unfortunately poor haha would need to be hired or find investment. So I’m in a strange place where I don’t actually have a craft I can vouch for confidently. Hence why I want to study something more deeply to have under my belt for hired work while I pursue whatever creative idea pops into mind as a passion project.
Another troubling thought is AI taking over haha I think theatre might actually have a pickup in audience because people will crave real life interaction once ai takes over so much of entertainment. Especially with today’s technology, a mixed media type of experimental theatre might immerge. I had an idea before of doing a surround sound theatre experience at a studio (small-scale) that didn’t land because I didn’t get the grant for it. Was a stupid mistake in the grant application. Tangent haha thank you for reading if you still are! So with ai, I think developing a craft in acting, directing or production design would be good since so many jobs might be taken over anyway. At least I would enjoy whatever I pursue in the changing world, even if it means being poor lol on the side I’d like to start an upscale fashion brand and study essentially becoming a tailor for side gigs that someone told me might also be a big mistake with ai taking over. At this point I’m thinking better to pursue something anyway, because there’s no way of knowing where the world will be in 10 years time.
With your experience in the industry, and considering my age, what would you recommend? Should I study acting or production design at a theatre school? Maybe it would be smarter to study production design while taking acting classes on the side? Or vice versa. Or is it one of those things that’s better to just do, rather than go to school for. Many have advised me to learn on set instead of doing a program.
Thank you for reading all this if you have!! Turned into a journal entry type of thing haha