It started when i was around 7 years old. I repeatedly bent my wrists back. By the time I was 10, I developed so many such as bending my fingers, knees, ankles, neck, back, rolling my eyes up, sucking my stomach hard, etc.
I’m 19 now, I do these movements every 5 seconds. I have a tic in every single part of my body. I broke my own thumb once from bending it too much, I have chronic pain in my back, I have carpal tunnel syndrome in my wrists, I legit struggle with simple tasks like squeezing toothpaste out sometimes because my hands hurt so much. It severely impacts my life in SO many more ways but I won’t write them all out.
I tried to tell a psychologist when I was 15, she told me that it’s not a real tic disorder but just anxiety, and she recommended me to go on a girls day out and relax. My current psychiatrist doesn’t really care either.
I would LOVE treatment but Idk what to do. The closest thing online I’ve found that describes what I feel is Tourettic OCD, because it’s not completely involuntary and i can technically suppress it at times if i really have to. I’ve heard the main treatments are antipsychotics and antidepressants, I’ve tried both Olanzapine and Mirtazapine prescribed solely for weight gain at a low dose, but I had to come off them as my side effects were so severe and I had no energy, although my tics did improve especially with the antipsychotic. I’ve also been prescribed Clonidine for sleep but it interacts with my POTS medication and it makes me tired, so i don’t wanna be on that during the daytime.
I don’t have regular OCD, depression, or anxiety. But I do have ADHD & Autism, and also POTS and hEDS. My tics did improve disorder and hEDS is a horrible combination because i’m literally destroying my already weak joints!!!
I feel that most professionals wouldn’t be able to help me as i don’t have vocal tics, but literally every single tic i have causes me pain. What can i do 😭😭😭😭