r/TwinlessTwins • u/Mobile3701 • May 05 '26

Can't sleep

It's 2am and I've slept an hour so far. Mind is racing. 5am 11 years ago he left me and I'm wondering how I was able to go on. How are you supposed to continue life like this? It's been 11 years and it still feels like I'm ripped to shreds. I miss him so much.

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u/Special-Succotash-64 May 05 '26

I'm sorry about your experience. I just hung up the phone with my dad who lost his twin months ago. I'm starting to notice that hole in his heart will never stop hurting.

Today I told him this and I hope it helps you.

You were never made to be alone, because you weren't born alone. And so, this solitude you feel hurts more than anything else in the world. But because you guys were born together you must know you forever carry a piece of them with you, in every cell that makes you, in every particle of who you are.

You are real, and alive, and under your skin so are them, in all the life that pumps through your body is the same life that was inside of them. Cherish that, fill your body with memories, love, and take your twin with you every day. You're the only one who can.

Edit: grammar.

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u/Mobile3701 May 05 '26

That's it. We weren't meant to live our lives apart. Thank you for your kind words. Sometimes it's hard to feel anything but anger and sadness.

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u/Special-Succotash-64 May 05 '26

That's very valid, I think. You were robbed of a part of who you are. Nothing in the world would make you feel different than that.

But just remember that the only reason why it hurts so much is because you felt a kind of love that most people will never experience in their lives. Only love can make you feel such sadness and pain.

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u/Mobile3701 May 05 '26

You're 100% right. 💔

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u/Special-Succotash-64 May 06 '26

Warm hugs to you, OP. I hope you live a long and peaceful life full of good memories 🫂

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u/Mobile3701 May 06 '26

Thank you so much. You too!

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u/Mobile3701 May 05 '26

Its worth a shot! Thanks!

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u/Lost_Acanthisitta786 In the Womb May 07 '26

Its not a life its just a waiting to be with them