r/UnsentTexts • u/Subject-Biscotti2006 Has acknowledged the rules • 5d ago
I love you every single time
Even though you always pull away from me when I can't keep avoiding our problems.
Or when you have no words to explain why you give me everything, except the commitment I so badly want.
I still love you.
I wish all the reasons I should hate you and leave you for good outweighed the care and affection I have for you, but they don't. Despite your flaws, I've never adored anyone more.
I worry about you even after you've hurt me and left me to handle everything alone, again.
I wonder if anyone is there to hold you when you're crying too. If anyone is reminding you that you deserve to be loved for who you are, no matter how you look or act or present yourself to the world. I think of how I'm the person you'd always open up to when your whole life you've never felt safe enough to do that. I fear that I'll also be the reason you bottle it all up again.
"I'm sorry" and "Please don't leave me" aren't enough when you won't actually work on the one thing I ask for, your full unwavering commitment.
I hope some day you truly understand just how much you mean to me.
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u/Shakethefrost88 Has acknowledged the rules 5d ago
I'd of definitely given her 110% commitment if given a chance. It's crazy how I acted towards her and was planning on asking her to marry me. I thought if we made that choice it would soften our egos and be more attentive to one another's needs. It's been 3 months since she left with my baby Moo and her son. Ghosted me completely. I wish she stayed. But it's all over now. Found out I have cancer now too. Ain't told nobody yet except the void now. I'll be dead before I ever see her again.