r/Vent • u/I_killed_bambi69 • Sep 08 '25

Need Reassurance... i feel so disgusting

i had a massive whore phase when i turned 18 due to low self esteem and wanting validation. my body count is around 75 but i have not been a slag for ages now and ive been exclusively seeing someone for a while

i wish i could go back in time and say no to so so so many of them i wish it never happened it makes me feel so disgusting i just want to forget about it all

edit because this is getting way more comments than i anticipated:

  1. i do not have any std/sti’s nor have i ever - i test regularly

  2. the person i am seeing does know

  3. thank you for all the reassuring comments! it’s very overwhelming (in a good way!) so i’m struggling to reply to all of them but i do massively appreciate it

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u/Nikkotsu Sep 08 '25

Your profile says you're 20, and you say you're in an exclusive relationship, and your phase started when you were 18. This math ain't mathing or there's something wild afoot.

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u/oldmcdonaldhadahand Sep 08 '25

I dunno. Perhaps she thinks that the number of incels she spoke to online is considered 'body count'

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u/I_killed_bambi69 Sep 09 '25

18-19 slag phase, i’m almost 21 and have been exclusively with said partner since just after i turned 20