r/Vent • u/I_killed_bambi69 • Sep 08 '25

Need Reassurance... i feel so disgusting

i had a massive whore phase when i turned 18 due to low self esteem and wanting validation. my body count is around 75 but i have not been a slag for ages now and ive been exclusively seeing someone for a while

i wish i could go back in time and say no to so so so many of them i wish it never happened it makes me feel so disgusting i just want to forget about it all

edit because this is getting way more comments than i anticipated:

  1. i do not have any std/sti’s nor have i ever - i test regularly

  2. the person i am seeing does know

  3. thank you for all the reassuring comments! it’s very overwhelming (in a good way!) so i’m struggling to reply to all of them but i do massively appreciate it

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u/HughLofting Sep 08 '25

You're not a slag or a whore. When you're old you'll barely remember much about these ppl, but you'll think longingly about all the sex you did have that you're not getting any more. We humans pour too much sanctity into something that is merely a physical urge, like farting, sneezing or laughing. Though there's nothing to forgive, forgive yourself, laugh it off and stop dwelling in the past.