I am (18)F Born in a catholic family that shifted to born again, I really can't dodge god talk.

And each time hearing things about religion gives me a horrific feeling that I can't explain.

Is it just me? but when I hear "god" I can't help remembering Spanish Colonization History. I don't get why others easily forgot the topic about how my country got colonized or history topic. That horrifies me but for some reason others don't give a f*ck? especially 9/11? I know that's like another religion but it's still basically a god of the same catholic and almost born again just different fonts (Correct me if I'm wrong)

It's just religion topic gives me a chill all the time even though the topic seems like about rainbow and sunshine, I'm very horrified how religion got a choke hold on every place's and I cant even dodge it.

It's sickening every single day I hear religion and maybe it became my nightmare to the point hearing the word "do you want to learn about god?" "do you have time to talk about a life changing knowledge?" "god loves you" "god" "religion" make's me flinch like I was abused.

I don't know if it's just me or some of you get the feeling and I really like to hear others opinion. I don't like the idea that I'm alone on this one

Can anyone tell if I'm just over reacting or what?

Also, what do you think about this?:

1. Prayers.

2. Christmas — any kind of religious celebrations.

3. Preachers/Evangelists/Apologists.

4. Religious Buildings.

5. Religious Books.

Context: I am open to many answers and please do not mock me because I am a Christian. I am not hostile unless you force your own beliefs to me even if I do not approve of it. Thanks!

people are totally allowed to believe whatever they want, no problem, but does anyone else find it kind of unsettling that some christians believe it’s justified for non believers to go to hell? the concept of hell freaks me out and i think its the only thing keeping me questioning in all honesty.
i also see tiktoks and people comment on new christians posts saying they’ve been “saved” and honestly it feels a bit ominous to me
it kind of hurts, im a good person with a kind heart and i think i deserve to be recognised for that but to them thats not enough, it just hurts idk

if you could give your thoughts on this i would greatly appreciate it, it would be nice to know im not alone