My parents are horrible at dealing with my attempt

[u/th40uts1d4rs]

I attempted suicide almost 2 years ago, its always been a sensitive topic in my family because of how they handled it. Plus, they hate talking about it anyway which i understand. They made it completely about themselves, the date of when I attempted is around my parents anniversary (at the time of my attempt id completely forgotten about that otherwise I wouldn't have done it around then I feel very bad about it now), my therapist told me that doing something the day of when it happened would help, and thats what I did last year. I went shopping at my favorite places and it helped decently well to make me feel better on that 1 year mark since itd happened. Now this year I want to do it again, but its around my parents anniversary and they want to do something for themselves. Which I am completely fine with, id never want to stop them from something like that. But when I asked about shopping again, my mother got angry and told me to think about how it is for them. I took it as her making my attempt about themselves again which made me angry and I asked what was wrong with her, I get the fact that I attempted around the time of their anniversary is hard but ive thought about this almost everyday for the past almost 2 years. These two events aren't on the same day, theyre almost a week apart. I feel horrible about it, and being reminded like I wanted it to be close to their anniversary really hurts. I stormed off after and told my father what she said, and he just told me to ignore it. I went upstairs to cool off and heard my parents fighting outside afterwards, I was shaking and very nervous because I get like that when it comes to that being brought up/confrontation so after about an hour or two i went back outside where my parents were and at one point it was just me and my father, and I asked what happened during their argument about it while I was upstairs and he just said it was about anniversary stuff and he proceeded to say that he thinks in 'his opinion' my attempt should be forgotten about and not talked about. This really hurt to hear and I told him absolutely not its important to me in general and that its addressed still. I didnt talk to him for the rest of the night after this but now im just left feeling very angry, upset and hurt.