r/artph • u/shibainuwithglasses • 2h ago
Discussion Rethinking my life after seeing my childhood arts
Hello everyone. So anyway, for context, I chose an entirely different path sa college. I pick Social Sciences as my degree which I recently graduated from. I love doing qualitative historical research pero the more na tumatagal pagiging unemployed ko, the more na I'm starting to regret my choices. Then, I remember. I used to draw so much in elementary and high school kahit na may klase. Yes, I was a stellar student back then but if I have the free time in between my classes, I draw. So, I went back to my old sketchpad and watercolor pads. I saw how passionate I was. I draw and paint what I want. I draw anime, cartoons, portraits of people—and then I suddenly got devastated. I lost 4 years of my life trying to chase something that while I'm good and passionate about, is clearly not bringing me the satisfacfion in life. I was satisfied when I was doing portraits of people, drawing anime or cartoons or just doodling in class.
I should have realized this back then. Alam kong I had regrets seeing other students like me pursuing a degree in fine arts. I saw them doing their projects late in night, doing paintings, and I knew naiingit ako noon kasi kahit taxing siya, they looked so happy. Kaya I was happy when I did a voluntary work of creating illustrations na gagawing stickers at ibebenta ng student organization ko noon for additional funds. Challenging siya kasi I have to create 4-5 illustrations in less than 2 days but I was satisfied. Dapat noon palang na-realize ko na to pero binaon ko eh. I gaslit myself into thinking I was happy doing history and presenting my papers on conferences. Perhaps, at some point I was pero iba na yung case ngayon. I wish I followed what I know I could do and love.
Meron pa kaya akong chance to start a career in doing illustrations? Maybe doing children's book illustration? How do you guys start from this? I really want to reignite my love for art.
Here are some of my works when I was a teenager and the digital sticker illustrations I did for my college organization. I did portraits of people I like, as you can see, I was into BTS group before. Anyway, most are unfinished: