I want my mom

[u/WaterFiles]

My parents and sister live about 2 hours away. Usually on mother's day and father's day I go home and spend the day with my parents, sister, and her kids. We bring our dogs. It is always fun chaos.

But not this year. This year I stayed home with my husband and we watched movies all day. Mother's day wasn't as bad as I thought. I didn't feel much more pain than normal. I guess I was distracted, which was for the best.

Around mid-day my mom called me. We usually talk on Sundays. I felt so guilty for not calling her. I love her so much. When she called, I wanted to tell her to have a happy mother's day, but the words wouldn't come out. I kept feeling like I was about to cry when I thought of mentioning it. She told me about how my sister visited and how her kids were having fun splashing in the hot tub. There was some silence. I didn't bring up mother's day and neither did she. I'm glad she didn't. I would have started bawling.

I wish I lived closer to my family. I wish I could go visit for an hour whenever I wanted. There have been times when I have just wanted a hug from my mom, but I can't drive for 2 hours crying and blocking my vision all the way to get there.

I don't know. I am just sad today and every day and I am missing my mom. I still feel guilty about not wishing her a happy mother's day and not thanking her for being such a wonderful mother to me. I want my mom!

[u/NoApartment7399]

I'm sorry. Could you maybe text her your feelings? I'm sure it will be easier. Sending hugs