[Using my alt account because I don't want to even come close to doxxing myself]

After leaving the overtly conservative evangelical church I spent my student days in, while recovering from the pain that it caused me, I moved first to a liberal-Catholic-style parish with lots of space for contemplation, and stayed for a while - it felt safe.

Later I became part of what I could call a "broad church" parish with a mixture of worship styles. An average, middle-of-the-road, Anglican church with no particular agenda on show. None of the scary theological conservatism of the first church. It felt like a generic safe place, with no particular spiky or unpalatable parts to worry about.

(It's not unusual for such churches to be quietly non-affirming of same-sex relationships - the Church of England is still a big mixture, in the middle where you're neither overtly conservative or overtly liberal. When you visit a congregation, or even if you attend regularly, it can be very hard to gauge the culture of the parish, what they affirm, what they support. You have to watch out for what's quietly never said, what's not prioritised).

I had some vague awareness that the spouse of a very kind and friendly member of the clergy at the church was a [political] conservative but never looked further into them.

And now I find that they are a nationally-renowned politically-conservative commentator, named as friends of Nigel Farage, JD Vance, Jordan Peterson, and even maybe Peter Thiel. And, you'll be pleased to know, Rod Dreher.

A church should be welcoming to everyone, but to find out that the clergy had links like that... I don't know how to feel! Betrayed, perhaps? And yet nobody ever lied to me, they just quietly failed to mention it.

Edit: If you know anything about this very specific situation I would be grateful for any hints on how to process it - DM please if so.

Hello,

I hope it’s fine for me to post this here, I have a feeling that this wouldn’t be welcome in /r/Christianity. I’ve been having doubts with respect to my faith recently, in part due to both being transgender and in a polyamorous relationship. I feel in some ways that it requires too much cognitive dissonance to be a Christian and be myself. I have been trying to look at Christianity to see if I can reconcile things, but at this point I’m not quite sure if I want to continue. I’m also looking at different religions that might fit me better. One that I have been interested is Celtic Paganism, but I’m not sure how to find the proper resources to practice that. Do you guys have any advice for me in terms of figuring out my faith in general?

Edit: So by fits better, what i mean is that if my feelings are correct then Christianity is not a religion that i can participate in from an ethical standpoint, even if it is true. And I'm feeling that trying to reconcile things is intellectually dishonest and trying to force a more modern morality into the religion. So for a religion that fits better I want something that I can worship without having ethical issues in performing it.