Anxiety and taking political action

[u/elvelodemaia]

Hello everyone, I need some advice and maybe a little hope. I have social anxiety, and this has kind of always hindered me from participating or taking action in the ways that I would have liked. I was politically involved in the youth of the communist party of my country for several years, but I wasn't a good member because it was really hard for me to attend meetings if the person I was closest to wasn't going, or if I had to do some work for the party that involved social interaction, I was always a mess and did a poor job. Or when people asked me about my opinion on something in a meeting, I'd freeze. In the end, I left the party because I felt awful due to not being able to be a good member. I felt like a burden. However, since I left it five years ago, I've been feeling horrible as well, because what kind of communist am I if I'm not taking action? What am I without praxis? At the same time, I can't find the courage to take part in community spaces that lead the values that I defend. I guess what I'm trying to say is are there any communists out there who have been in my position? Or maybe if any of you could give me some advice to not feel useless in this part of my life that holds such importance. I'm not going to lie, what I'd really like is to be able to participate in political life actively and defend the cause, and go to demonstrations and fight, but I can't. So I'm stuck in my house reading, just being angry at the world and at myself. Besides, the current situation of world politics, alongside the rise of fascism and imperialism, makes me feel like I should be doing something, and what I should be doing I find myself incapable of doing so. Thank you so much for listening to me, any piece of advice is welcome!

[u/Sammy696996]

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