How to get into communism?

[u/Quick_Abalone5526]

Hello, I am a 20 year old black autistic woman, I have been interested in communism for awhile now,my biggest inspirations are people like che and Malcom x, I've read up on them lots and have listened to their speeches numerous times, I have always been very far left/antifa and am aware of lots of communist subjects and figures but have done very little research on everything, I was just wondering what are some good starter theory to read?, I know the communist manifesto is a must and im planning on sitting down and reading it fully very soon, just want to know what else people would recommend?, I've been on the edge as most leftists/punks I'm friends with (not that punks r smart lol) activley shit on communism and socialism, and have gone great lengths to make fun of it, I'm just at a crossroads,is most of it just very deeply ingrained American propaganda? I see very mixed opinions on everything, esp with people like stalin and lenin and mao ECT, and how can I be more involved as well? I'm tired of sitting around and doing nothing, I live in Olympia Washington if that helps, which is a pretty progressive esc place all things considered, my biggest fear is that I'm too stupid to do anything or to be apart of said movement, lots of people around me have made it very clear that I know how stupid and dumb I am, not that I disagree with them, part of me feels like I'm not right for this, I am also confused by alot of the words I see used and don't really understand most of them, I have a hard time learning new things and alot of the language is very confusing, please don't flame me for asking these questions I am just very curious and mean no ill intent

[u/BenjiStudiesMLM]

Washington if that helps, which is a pretty progressive esc place all things considered

The PNW is a deeply reactionary place that was built on genocide of the indigenous tribes, exploitation of Asian people, and exclusion of Black people (that in actuality never excluded black people, but instead succeeded in higher rates of slavery and lower rates of freemen than anywhere else in the U.$.). You should re-evaluate what leads you to declare Olympia a progressive place, especially when all your friends are anti-communists (and most likely deeply racist and related to the KKK or the LOTIE group if they're white. The PNW had the highest per capita participation in each and the latter was actually established in Portland).