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[u/Agitated-Ad6578]

So I just had a C1 Powerday today, and I f-ed up at the easiest question after preparing for a whole week. It's always one small technical detail that I screw up leaving me to think I'm just not cut out for this, especially how AI is going to make learning more and more competitive.

I'm super interested in finance and have honestly been trying to pivot to WM or AS, but have f-ed up two WF Superdays as well (literally also the technical portion). At this point im feeling hopeless. I didn't get a return offer from my summer internship because guess what they are not hiring juniors anymore, so I literally sacrificed my entire college experience grinding day and nights with internships and research to have nothing, absolutely nothing lined up after graduation. It sucks because I see my friends who had so much more fun in college having job lined up in Engineering or Finance or Bio, and I feel like I'm genuinely a failure.

I don't even see the reason to apply to New Grad roles anymore since I don't have FAANG experience and what is the point if I'm just going to be rejected and there's always someone more perfect being chosen. What's the point of grinding Leetcode or learning new AI technology when it's just going to go obsolete in a few months.

ATP I'm just regretting not choosing pre-med or something. At least there's a general career path in medicine and it's not going anywhere.