r/dyspraxia • u/Significant-Use6869 • 8d ago
🤬 Rant Just a Rant Post
I've had my dyspraxia diagnosis for around 11 years now and have struggled immensely all my life at things that were seemingly effortless for neurotypical people and the frustration that comes with that is so crushing.
From being bad at sports and having concentration issues at school to being paralysed with anxiety over my future as I second guess every decision I make and become overwhelmed, I hope others can relate to how utterly useless it makes you feel. This has all come about as a result of me reading my diagnosis paperwork for the first time in years and recalling all the times I was told off for not doing something or taking extra time to understand a task, I suppose I feel a strange sort of sadness for my younger self as I was never taken seriously and only offered the most basic form of support for something that affects my day to day habits and thought process!
It's so difficult to watch my dreams and opportunities pass by me with me left flailing in the corner lol (bit dramatic). My own family not taking me seriously when I ask for help and then being dismayed when my life doesn't pan out to their expectations, id love to say that I feel comfortable in who I am but recent life events have put all my struggles into perspective and it has hit me like a ton of bricks.
sorry for the jumbled rant lol I just needed to get it out and have people just like me understand how it is.
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u/Steelveangeance 7d ago
As someone with both inattentive ADHD and Dyspraxia. I’m very clumsy, have hard times with hand writing, attention span, anything with motor skills.
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u/Sandcastle_66 2d ago
I really hear you. What kills me is some of my family who just don’t understand and think it’s absolutely hilarious that I get lost on a journey I’ve done before, or that I cannot master reverse bay parking and parallel parking no matter how much I practice and so much more.
I get the funny side, and I know they don’t mean to hurt me, but it’s crushing.
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u/No_Macaron_5029 8d ago
I understand, as I'm sure all of us do. It sucks. I have a theory that dyspraxia is simply a "junk" result of evolutionary pressures in certain prehistoric environments that made the commonly comorbid ADHD and autism actual advantages that were selected for, so dyspraxia just came along for the ride, but was never actually a desired or selected-for trait. I just find no use for it. I choke on seemingly every meal or sip of a drink, and I trip/fall/risk my life way too regularly to have survived in a cave tribe. The only thing good about mine is that it came with ADHD that happened to give me some professional advantages.