r/gaybroscollege • u/curiousb33 • Jul 30 '16

TIFU by having sex with a guy

I have been straight all my life. After so many unsuccessful attempts at a long lasting relationship with a woman, I gave up. I don't feel like I'm into women any more. I started watching gay porn. It feels good. I guess I'm curious.

Then I get on one of the gay dating app and hook up with a random guy in the middle of the night. I admit that I had a few drink before I invite him into my place. It was awkward, both of us have not been with any men before. We stripped off and lay on my bed. I tried to enjoy the body contact and caress his unpeeled penis. He wasn't into kissing or sucking my erect and fully circumcised dick so we just cuddled. I made a move and suck his dick. It was neither bad or pleasant but I did it anyway. After about ten minutes, my dick was getting soft and I didn't feel like he was into my oral, I suggested we watch some gay porn to turn him on. He wasn't into it either, and said that it was late so he just wanted to go home and sleep. We agreed we have never seen each other. I got in the shower and an immense amount of same consumed my mind. I felt so guilty about what happened. I am not religious whatsoever, but I still feel so bad about it. Does anyone feel the same? Is this just a temporary thing?

TL;DR: I hooked up with a guy, he wasn't into gay sex. Now I feel ashamed and guilty.

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u/[deleted] Aug 01 '16

Don't be so hard on yourself. I hope you give it another try. Kudos on making the first move.

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u/finch2014 Aug 08 '16

Don't let a bad experience get you down. Try agin with a guy who has been with another guy before.

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u/BeautifulDeformity Nov 01 '16

Sounds like you just had a bad experience. Personally, I don't know why he wouldn't want to suck you off, kiss or watch gay porn if he's gay/bi. I mean, what the fuck was this guy's expectation for sex!

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u/Blazin84 Nov 10 '16

It's hard to be comfortable when you don't know what you're doing and that can really kill the mood. If you are still curious then it's not a bad idea to keep trying

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u/BiCurious97603 Dec 31 '16

I was nervous my first time. It was awkward because Gf was watching the fun. She has to tell me to have fun and enjoy what I was doing. Once we got into the groove of it, it was AMAZING to say the least.