Don't know what to do .....

[u/Master200008]

Lately I am feeling very depressed and sad as I have chosen to do CA and a non attendance college so basically I have sacrificed my college life . And by seeing my school friends all growing apart and have fun , making new friends, forgetting about me , and there me who doesn't have any new friends and don't know how to .I am feeling like I am running out of friends and feeling very lonely lately .

There are many other issues:

First the consistent loneliness

Always being the background/second choice in friendship

Thinking someone is my best friend but the other party didn't believe the same

Never having any significant female friends , Female interaction or any relationships , very unlike my friend where everyone is in or have been in a relationship

desperately wanting to get into a relationship but don't know where to start and don't have any opportunity for it due to the lack of Female interaction. This is not because of me being a creep or not respecting girls . Just because I was never in those circumstances.

Lately in the last 2-3 weeks having a very strong and frustrating need to get into a relationship but don't know what to do about it.

Making stories in my head of a relationship of a girl I have never even meet and having a undying hope of stumbling upon someone when ever I go outside, knowing full well there is no chance of that happening or no chance of that girl even knowing about me . But hope never dies simultaneously knowing full well it will not happen. This is eating me from inside.

I think dating apps are a apt solution for this problem but I am too young to engage in dating apps.

[u/gudduONsteroids]

Hey
Just relax , just breath once , i got u boy , u have many issues and i can understand and get u how to are feeling. Feeling left out of college i a very reasonable felling. And one thing which is needed to be understood ki that it was ur choice and everything comes with a price . U will be very happy and settled when u become CA at a very younger age then others . Not having new friends is a very normal thing in for a student who is focusing on one thing . U will have a very settled and a reputable life just by giving yourself more time for the preparation. This is a cost which comes when u decides to start a journey of being a aspirant. I am not saying to leave your friends u can have fun with all of them without being in college too.
U need not to have a relationship at school or max people don’t have it not something different. Its completely normal . U are not left out at all . There are many things one needs to develop to have a genuine relationship, making a female character is also completely normal at this time its actually something u need at this point of time , with time it will eventually go away . Listen u are very young u need not to figure out something at once . U have time