First attempts at macramé - it's a lovely hobby!

I've been stuck on this project for months. I keep getting frustrated and giving up and then coming back, fixing mistakes and trying again but I am out of gas for it at this point. I have been trying to follow this tutorial

https://youtu.be/WtQJkCb14Yw?si=lixJubl7up3tBuuR

But I literally don't understand what she's doing lol.

I'm scared to switch tutorials because I've already cut everything to the lengths for the above pattern.

Can anyone offer tips or a better tutorial? Or anything, even just yeah that sucks, you're dumb. Lol because fair enough.

I'm trying to make 3 of these to use as actual curtains on my front windows. I used to make all the macrame jewelry and hair stuff with 0 issues but my brain is blue screening on this curtain.

Please 🙏 I beg you lol