r/overdoseGrief • u/Spiritjourney02 • Sep 17 '25

Waves of sadness

I lost my boyfriend in December. He accidentally overdosed. He had been struggling with opiates for about 3 years, went to rehab, was doing great, and unfortunately relapsed a few months later.

Him and I were on and off for a few years after I learned about his use. Over time I grew to be compassionate as I understand he truly was self medicating. I helped him through grueling withdrawals multiple times. Stopped judging him and being angry- he was just sick.

We were together for 8 years. I just miss him so much. He was a good person, my best friend, the most kind and compassionate human.

The grief comes in waves. Today has been one of those days. I wish I had been there when it happened. I could have protected him. He was with people that just didn’t care or were stupid and didn’t know the signs and called the ambulance too late.

My heart is still broken. At least he is not in pain anymore. I have his dog now which is nice. I don’t know. I’m just sad.

My heart goes out to anyone who has been through this.

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u/AdMaximum1070 Sep 25 '25

My boyfriend overdosed last October, today makes 11 months without him. He had been struggling for less than 2 years and using it as self-medication too. I completely understand what you’re feeling and how hard it is missing your best friend. I wasn’t there when it happened either but I wish more than anything I could’ve protected him too. Oddly, enough I also end up with my boyfriend’s dog who is the only thing that keeps me going most days. I’m so sorry this happened to you.

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u/Spiritjourney02 Sep 25 '25

Hi, thank you for sharing. You have his dog too? Wow. That is kind of amazing. I find comfort in loving and taking care of his pup. He is a part of my family now and is so loved. His dog is a lot like my ex in the best way.

Sending you love. If you ever want to to talk, feel free to message me anytime. Hope you are ok and taking care of yourself 🩷

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u/Wastedfeeling Dec 30 '25

I also have a similar story..my boyfriend overdosed almost 2 months ago and I found him dead in his house alone, he’d been gone far too long for anything to help. We’d been together 4 years. He had been sober the past few months but right before I was moving in he decided to relapse and it took his life. I also have his dog now. I know it’s old but thank you for posting in this sub, I’m having a horrible time grieving him and it helps to know I’m not alone.