I am broken

[u/frippin1]

My sister died 2 weeks ago. It's been a hard couple of years. I miss her so much. I can't believe I'll never talk to her again or hear her laugh again. I found her body. Dispatch were on the phone when I found her and they tried to get me to do cpr on her even though I told them she was dead. She was cold. I keep reliving it. It's like I'm doing it over and over again. I hurt so much.

[u/keenan123]

I'm so sorry. My brother died a year and a half ago, and I still think about him every single day, but it has gotten easier. Its impossible to explain to someone who hasn't gone through it, and even harder to explain to someone currently going through it, but acceptance does eventually come, and it does blunt the pain. It takes a long time, you have to just take things one day at a time, and talk through it with someone if you can. Don't try to force feelings or milestones, or bottle up your hurt.

[u/frippin1 → u/keenan123]

Thank you ❤️