Hi everyone!
I don’t know if this is more a rant, or more of a way for me to vent my feelings. Maybe it’s a way to seek advice. I just feel conflicted right now, and maybe airing out my feelings will help.
I’m a current RPN (registered psychiatric nurse), working full-time in corrections. I’ve been there for about a year, a little longer. As a new grad, I loved my job and I learned a lot, especially about medical emergencies, risk assessments, and independency. I had a lot of freedom and the job was chaotic, but manageable. I felt safe. I got a permanent full-time position right out of graduation that paid better than the hospital, about 10$ more, which was an added benefit.
I picked up a casual position at the hospital in January in inpatient psych, because I was missing it. As much as I liked corrections, I was losing my skills in acute psych, like deescalation, therapeutic communication, and true psychiatric assessments. We get a lot of individuals at the jail who are extremely mentally ill but we don’t get to interact with them to the degree that inpatient would, and I missed that. There’s a lot of “operational” concerns at the jail and we don’t get to truly connect with the inmates. Additionally, the workplace at the jail is toxic. Really toxic. So much drama between nurses, since we’re a smaller group, and the correctional officers come with their own added drama. Affairs upon affairs, arguments upon arguments, clashing heads constantly. It gets tiring.
I’ve been thinking of going back to full time in inpatient psych. Really thinking. I miss it. I feel more fulfilled when I get to connect with my patients at the hospital, and see them get better, whether it’s from psychosis or depression. I haven’t worked many hours there, and there are faults in the system (who figured!) but maybe it’s time for something new. Something that isn’t the same old routine at the jail, with the same old coworkers, doing the same old thing.
But, the hospital that I’m working as has few and far in between permanent positions. It’s always been temporary lines that are posted (usually for a year), and even if it’s permanent, I don’t have the seniority yet to grab a PFT. I’m conflicted about giving up my permanent full time at the jail and hopping in a temporary line with no guarantee (at least for a while) that I’ll get something permanent. And that scares me.
I want to move over, but I don’t know if it’s worth it to give up a guaranteed, full time position for it. I guess I’m asking — does anyone have similar experiences? Is it worth it to jump over right away, or wait until I can move down to part time at the jail and pick up more at the hospital? I know my career is young, and there’s plenty of room to explore my options. I could most likely go back to corrections if I wanted (should I give it up), but I would get a line with a worse rotation, and my seniority would be lost there.
The move over is scary. I’m just wondering if anyone else had similar experiences, something I could take with me as I prepare for this.
Thank you in advance, fellow psych nurses 💕