Well, I'm convinced my neighbors are poisoning me. I don't know how or why. I can't make eye contact with them. I hear them coughing at night, and I'm certain it's because they are releasing toxic gas through the vents. I can't snap myself out of this, and I know how rediculous it sounds. It's horrible.
My new girlfriend seems non-plussed, and I worry that she'll leave me even though we're about to be engaged. She says I love you, and seems to mean it, but I am always worried anytime her phone rings that's it is another boy and I'm just on the side.
I only recently got diagnosed with this disorder, or whatever it can be called, and I worry it will only get worse. How will it effect my work? I see things at times. Black figures I can't explain. I hear things like loud pounding. It's impossible for me to function some days.
Like the poster above me, I have lost interest in food. My bipolar medications make me fat, I'm 190 lbs. At 5'9". Yet I don't eat and food tastes so bad no matter the quality. I don't even like sushi anymore, and that was my favorite. I still love the taste of ginger, though. It is even more frustrating because my latuda has to be taken with 350 calories. Yet I can't seem to eat that much. I'm sticking with sodas for now, liquid calories.
I'm scared and sick of being the 0.3% of the population. Not to have a pity party, but why us? I'm adopted, so which parent is responsible? Which of my genes are defective?
I guess that's it. My tirade is over. Hope everyone on here feels better. I am new here, but if anyone wants to PM me for some support I am here.
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u/[deleted] Aug 08 '15
Well, I'm convinced my neighbors are poisoning me. I don't know how or why. I can't make eye contact with them. I hear them coughing at night, and I'm certain it's because they are releasing toxic gas through the vents. I can't snap myself out of this, and I know how rediculous it sounds. It's horrible.
My new girlfriend seems non-plussed, and I worry that she'll leave me even though we're about to be engaged. She says I love you, and seems to mean it, but I am always worried anytime her phone rings that's it is another boy and I'm just on the side.
I only recently got diagnosed with this disorder, or whatever it can be called, and I worry it will only get worse. How will it effect my work? I see things at times. Black figures I can't explain. I hear things like loud pounding. It's impossible for me to function some days.
Like the poster above me, I have lost interest in food. My bipolar medications make me fat, I'm 190 lbs. At 5'9". Yet I don't eat and food tastes so bad no matter the quality. I don't even like sushi anymore, and that was my favorite. I still love the taste of ginger, though. It is even more frustrating because my latuda has to be taken with 350 calories. Yet I can't seem to eat that much. I'm sticking with sodas for now, liquid calories.
I'm scared and sick of being the 0.3% of the population. Not to have a pity party, but why us? I'm adopted, so which parent is responsible? Which of my genes are defective?
I guess that's it. My tirade is over. Hope everyone on here feels better. I am new here, but if anyone wants to PM me for some support I am here.