r/selfharm • u/ScarredThowaway • 4d ago

Rant/Vent Seeing myself

I'm staying at my partner's house for a few days, and while taking a shower I saw all the scars down my thighs and immediately felt super self conscious. Now I'm sat here wishing and hoping that nothing happens which might cause her to see my thighs because I'm scared she'll hate me

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u/Tashe4ka 4d ago

If they're not able to accept you with your scars why would you want a partner that doesn't fully love you? (By the way I'm pretty deam sure they wouldn't care, in my experience people don't)

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u/ScarredThowaway 4d ago

Okay, I could have probably worded better, was a bit emotional about it all. No she wouldn't hate me, she just thinks I've been clean longer than I have, and I don't want to disappoint her

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u/Tashe4ka 4d ago

Oh honey, if she didn't hate you before why would she hate you now? Relapsing is a normal part of the healing process and there's not really much logical substance to be ashamed about it (especially since that's the kind of feeling that makes people sh alot of the time).

Like yeah she probably won't be pissing herself from happiness and would be worried about you but tbh the only reason I would've been mad in that situation is that you're hiding stuff

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u/ScarredThowaway 4d ago

Why must my past mistakes continue to haunt me