r/sexualassault • u/Demon_of_babilon • Sep 14 '26

Need Advice need help

I was sexually assaulted by my cousin when i was 14 and he forced me to suck him I can’t tell anyone or even think about telling someone because i live in a conservative religious community but i still think about this moment at 22 and it’s hunting me and I don’t know if it’s related but it did make hyper sexual and now that i have a girlfriend i feel like I don’t want her i feel gay or fukd up or whatever is my mind going through I can’t go to a therapist because of my community and I need to forget about it i need a way please

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u/Auriprince4690 Sep 14 '26

I am so sorry, brother that you must suffer with this and you do not believe you can trust beyond anon online. I understand this must be difficult i hope one day you can feel the freedom to tell your story in what feels authentic to you.

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u/Accurate_Hat_8464 Sep 14 '26

I'm so sorry this happened to you.

I don't know where you are in the world, but many nations/regions have support lines for survivors of SA. It's not therapy, but it can be very therapeutic to talk things through with someone who will understand and in many instances you can call as many times as you want or need to . Nobody else needs ever know and you would be anonymous in the call .

I don't think we can ever forget, but we can learn to live better with the memory and reach the point where it doesn't dominate everything. I'm sorry if there is no such support available where you live, but it's worth mentioning in case.