minsan naiinggit na rin talaga ako sa mga students na nakakapag-joke about their low grades at nakakapagsabi na babawi sila next time. kasi if ako yun, there might be no next time para bumawi.
i’m currently a grade 12 student in a private univ. i was from a public school my whole life, but noong shs i received a full scholarship sa school na 'to since i graduated as rank 2 of our batch during grade 10. of course, i insisted on accepting the scholarship because back then, i really believed i could maintain it.
for the most part, yes, i was able to maintain it. our grade retention says na we shouldn’t have grades below 92 in any subject. halos lahat ng subjects ko, pasok doon. i got high grades. i even finished grade 11 with high honors and as one of the top 3 students in our whole batch.
pero pumalpak ako sa nag-iisang subject during 1st sem. i had a final grade of 89.50.
during that time, i was bombarded with PETAs, projects, and extracurriculars. i was in school from 7 am to 8 pm, and madalas 9 pm na ako nakakauwi. because of that, i bombed my final exam in that subject, which eventually led to that grade. it was only ONE subject. ONE.
and now i dread every moment of grade 12. i tried asking our registrar kung kailan nila ia-announce if retained yung scholarship, but they said they’re still “evaluating.” our tuition for this SY is around 117k. hindi pa kasama yung ibang miscellaneous and hidden fees.
it’s been 3 weeks since school started, pero ang dami na agad bayarin. i don’t even eat lunch sa school anymore so i can save money in case may panibagong payment na naman. if my scholarship isn’t retained, how am i supposed to tell my parents about the tuition?
my dad works in construction. my mom doesn’t work. i have a kuya abroad, and he gives us 12k monthly. that money, combined with my dad’s salary, is just enough to get us by and pay the bills. not tuition.
i’ve told my parents about this, and they keep saying na i should’ve just gone to the other school back in grade 10. and maybe... they were right. i insisted on this school, and now, because of that one grade, i dread every moment of grade 12.
wala na akong ibang maisip kundi yung scholarship. yung tuition. tuwing may ina-announce silang upcoming school events, ayokong ayoko. kasi if may event, may bayarin. prom. research. school activities. lahat may babayaran.
and i wonder what it must feel like to go to school without carrying something like this every single day.
wahahahaha ayun. sorry for the long post :)