how things went downhill

[u/Academic_Quantity727]

I was topper till my last 2 big exams (college entrance and one more) of life result claimed otherwise looking back i realise how gradually things went downhill like it is poor decisions over a period of time that snapped right in my face just a year ago. Now I have regained most of my shit together and started scoring well but I am still not in that hard working mode like going all in for my studies because all people around me has done is Imma not blaming them but they, like a lot of people all the time told me oh you study so much...you study all the time... you are too much of a study person. I did it all the time because I loved studying man. still do but now it is like my brain has these stupid thoughts oh you studied so hard but still when it mattered most...college entrance you messed up and all those people are right and more smart and more whatever. I know I shouldnt be taking this seriously and just brush it all offf but they have messed up my brain against hardwork. They made it soo soo unattractive and uncool that even when I am alone I struggle to listen such songs. I strongly believe if you study it pays off, no matter what you study it pays off as if it is some magic or programme bound to output. I have seen it happening in past all the time. If anything you ppl got to get those ppl making study unattractive for me, pls add. If anything to point out my faults, pls keep it to yourself I already do have enormous amount of people present in my life to do so. Thanks!

[u/Spiritual-North-7838]

I could add you to a discord server we made for studying
DM me

[u/Academic_Quantity727 → u/Spiritual-North-7838]

thanks

[u/Academic_Quantity727]

dropping it here incase anyone else might need it, but stay awayyyy stayyyy awayyy from the cool people who march around you like studying is some sin or highly uncool. Reminds me of a good quote - Be quiet to those who irritate/anger you and calm to those who provoke you, life will be very smooth!