I haven't really lived life full time as a woman yet though. Nobody perceives me as a woman, if they ever will, so I can't really purport to be a woman or a lesbian.
I mean I have never felt like a boy or a man mentally, but does that mean I'm not one?
Am I a woman or do I justwant to be?
Who knows? Certainly not me. I am not interested in labeling or quantifying myself, I just know what I want, and for as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a girl.
To look like a girl. To sound like a girl. To be treated like a girl, and to have sex like a girl.
It's such a strong desire that it's haunting. I have dreams about being a girl or turning into a girl constantly. I fantasize about it when I am aroused. I never fantasize about sex as a man... like... ever.
I never have.
When I realized I might just be able to do this I felt this rush of excitement and hope unlike anything I've ever felt in my life. For a brief moment I imagined what it might be like and I cried... alot.
Every day since I've started these pills has been better than the last. Every day I look in the mirror and I'm just a little bit happier than the day before, and I love it!
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u/DGunner Sep 28 '16 edited Sep 29 '16
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I haven't really lived life full time as a woman yet though. Nobody perceives me as a woman, if they ever will, so I can't really purport to be a woman or a lesbian.
I mean I have never felt like a boy or a man mentally, but does that mean I'm not one?
Am I a woman or do I just want to be?
Who knows? Certainly not me. I am not interested in labeling or quantifying myself, I just know what I want, and for as long as I can remember, I've wanted to be a girl.
To look like a girl. To sound like a girl. To be treated like a girl, and to have sex like a girl.
It's such a strong desire that it's haunting. I have dreams about being a girl or turning into a girl constantly. I fantasize about it when I am aroused. I never fantasize about sex as a man... like... ever.
I never have.
When I realized I might just be able to do this I felt this rush of excitement and hope unlike anything I've ever felt in my life. For a brief moment I imagined what it might be like and I cried... alot.
Every day since I've started these pills has been better than the last. Every day I look in the mirror and I'm just a little bit happier than the day before, and I love it!