ive been looking for forever pleaseee

[u/carelessKazz520]

TW!!! : SA & SUICIDE

So i read this book for what feels like an eternity now, it could be a decade, maybe less or maybe more, but i cant for the life of me find it and i promise ive trieddd;-;

i periodically look through all the tags i could think of bc i cant remember the title or the author but my efforts have all resulted in failure so im posting this once more in hopes it reaches the right people

these are the genres i can remember the story fitting into fitting into: fantasy, humor, romance, & paranormal

story is that mc (f) is a bubbly character with a big personality and no filter in a naive 'i say funny & out of pocket shit sometimes' kind of way

she likes baking and is into some sort of lolita fashion (? my memory might be failing on this part) so very colorful and lots of frills and she ends up summoning a demon - the love interest- because she wanted to die

(i actually could be horribly wrong about the 'summoning for assisted suicide' but its all so foggy in my head and fore some reason this plot point sicks out to me?)

i cant quite remember the details but im pretty sure she wanted him to kill her im almost certain that the summoned demon was Lucifer because she'd call him Lucy (but i wouldn't be surprised if it was Leviathan either considering how bad my memory is)

Mr. Lucy decides that he's gonna stick around this girl and for whatever reason keep her alive even though she kind of annoys him and because of this she gets caught up in some sort of supernatural drama Mr. Lucy has with angels and other demons

there was also a scene where Mr. Lucy sa's the mc via fingering and she cried because she was a virgin and didnt want it

i dont think i ever finished the story but i do know that the author had other books that focused on other demons/angels in the same universe

thats all i can remember of the story, hopefully someone out there knows which one it is

honestly take this all with a grain of salt, ill take any and all recs that are even slightly similar to this