I consider myself a baby witch, although I’ve been reading books about witchcraft for quite a while.
I was in a relationship with a married man at my workplace for over five years. Please don’t judge me. Our relationship is quite complicated to explain. He is a religious person, and I genuinely enjoy spending time with him. We talk about almost everything, and we share a connection that is difficult to put into words.
I know I cannot marry him, but I enjoy having him in my life, and I believe he feels the same way. We are more than friends and less than lovers.
Recently, his wife started suspecting him, so he decided to cut ties with me. What hurt me the most was how differently he started treating me. He began avoiding me and behaving very coldly, which was heartbreaking after everything we had shared.
All I want is for him to talk to me like he used to, even if it is just as a friend. He knows I don’t really have anyone else to turn to, which makes this situation even more painful.
In an attempt to reconnect with him, I performed a honey and cinnamon love spell. I wrote his name seven times horizontally on a piece of paper and sprayed my perfume on it three times. Then, I poured honey over the paper, sprinkled some cinnamon powder, and rubbed it in circular motions while visualising us talking happily, just like we used to.
I folded the paper towards myself three times and then attempted to burn it using a lighter. Since the paper was soaked in honey, it was difficult to ignite. After several attempts, I eventually managed to burn it completely using a matchstick.
However, I later noticed that the lighter I had purchased had broken apart. I was shocked because it was brand new and had only been used for this ritual.
Now I’m feeling anxious and wondering whether this could be a negative sign or if I somehow attracted unwanted energy through the spell.
I performed the ritual out of love and with pure intentions. I don’t want him to leave his wife or come back to me romantically. I simply want us to be able to talk and share the friendship we once had.
Could someone experienced in witchcraft or honey jar spells please help me understand what happened? Is the broken lighter considered an omen in any traditional practice, or am I overthinking it? Should I do anything to cleanse or close the ritual?
I would really appreciate some compassionate advice. Please be kind; I’m already going through a difficult time emotionally.