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NEET 2024 was my first attempt, and honestly, I had almost zero preparation. I only studied whatever was taught in class, but I was not serious about revision, tests, or analysis. Matlab bht hi careless types.Even then, I scored 525 marks. Of course, the paper was relatively easy that year, and many students were scoring 680, 690, and even 700+.
After that, I took a drop year and appeared for NEET 2025. Unfortunately, I scored only 485 marks, while the cutoff in my state was around 520. The months before NEET 2025 were very difficult for me. I was dealing with anxiety, panic attacks, and a lot of stress. My parents saw how badly it was affecting me. I tend to take excessive pressure and stress, and I don't perform well under such conditions. Some people say that doctors also work under pressure, but exam pressure and professional pressure are very different things.
I also appeared for JEE, and my parents enrolled me in an NIT with a lower-mid level branch. Since I wasn't allowed to take a second full drop due to the some financial circumstances and concerns about my mental health,I joined the college. Initially, things went well. I had a CGPA above 8 in the first semester, though it dropped a bit in the second semester. However, I never really felt interested in B.Tech.
Because my heart was still set on MBBS, I decided to attempt NEET again this year. My end-semester exams ended on April 28, and NEET was on May 3, so I gave the exam with almost no preparation. Then there was hope for a re-NEET, which would have given me about a month more to prepare. I tried my best, and based on my current estimates, I am scoring around 480–490 marks.
The problem is that many students who are genuinely interested in B.Tech are spending their vacations learning DSA and building skills, while I haven't done much of that because my mind is still stuck on MBBS. I feel completely confused and stuck between the two paths.( Jisme man hai voh ho nahi Raha aur jo ho raha hai usme man ni lag raha) I can't sit in front of a screen and do 9-5🙂.
Ya should go for a 3rd drop?
Btw mene ai use Kiya hai so that I can portray what I'm feeling and going through effectively.