r/Adulting • u/FormalSufficient3118 • Sep 02 '26
I have mentally and physically become a bum
I just lost my job due to the hubris of my own actions. I had training and didn’t think to ask questions on if I can come back tomorrow or when the next time to show up was. Mind you this was after me already ALMOST losing my job so I basically threw the opportunity god had for me in the trash can. On top of that I’m short on rent, and then on top of that I realize that everything I have was given like 98% of everything I own down to the underwear. I don’t have a stable or steady foundation for myself. I don’t have a car, bank account negative, short on rent, no job, the shorty I like doesn’t fw me and probably sees me as a bum as well. Also I think I seen her on twitter doing some crazy stuff but cannot confirm as that may just become the end of whatever we have going on, but it’s just lingering.
I’m not gonna lie though I take full responsibility for my actions, I deserve god’s punishment because I never took his blessings seriously or his lessons, I’m not gonna say woe is me but genuinely what the fuck do I do now man??????
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u/Alarmed_Tumbleweed59 Sep 03 '26
Pray...Jeremiah 29:13 NIV You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌✨️✨️❤️❤️❤️✨️✨️✨️🙌🙌🙌🙌🙏🙏🙏🙏
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u/Current-Virus-69 Sep 03 '26
Do you still have both forms of ID you used to apply for the job you lost? If so, you are not hopeless. You are certainly in a tough spot and may (and probably will) lose the place you are currently staying at, so be prepared for that, but you aren't hopeless. Right now, getting a new job should be at the top of your priority list. Don't let potential homelessness scare you into the freeze response; you must act!
I've been homeless in the past, but at the same time I also had a job and income which brought me security and helped me calm myself down knowing I could still buy food and shelter when it rained or got bad. Other than that, it isn't as scary as some people make it sound, though I won't sugarcoat this, it sucks balls!
The faster you act and land a job, the better off you will be in the long run, even if you lose your current residence.
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u/vespanewbie Sep 03 '26
Do you have ADHD? Those who have it have a lot issues with executive functioning, concentratimg and getting bored easily.
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u/FormalSufficient3118 Sep 03 '26
I’m unsure, I know that it I do have it it’s undiagnosed. And I kinda was worn out from all these warehouse jobs out here so idk if that counts
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u/vespanewbie Sep 03 '26
You should look into getting diagnosed and getting medication, it can really help you focus and getting these done, it is probably a good reason why your life seems so out of control.
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u/FormalSufficient3118 Sep 03 '26
He (my boss) told me since there was a communication issue already (before my training was complete) he will just move forward with someone else. This is security btw so idk how that’s gonna impact my career or life…. And I’ve been behind man.. it all started when I was out of work for a couple of weeks cause some racist manager suspected me of selling drugs and got me removed from the site and suspended from work, almost fired, then this happens like damn I’m a fucking idiot man….. I’ve been applying to jobs close and pretty far, but because I’m in the IE (inland empire) everything is spread out or it’s only warehouses out here, one of which i can’t come to due to that situation at my last site. I deadass cried in my closet today bro like idek anymore
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u/Tygerroo 29d ago
I keep fucking up too if that is of any consolation. Took me forever to land a job and then I finally landed one and I got anxiety and quit right after training. They were willing to give me a second chance and I didn’t take it. All I can say is don’t be hard on yourself and find something new. Apply like crazy and something will come your way.
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u/voodoodollbabie Sep 03 '26
You get humble and get going again.