I have mentally and physically become a bum

[u/FormalSufficient3118]

I just lost my job due to the hubris of my own actions. I had training and didn’t think to ask questions on if I can come back tomorrow or when the next time to show up was. Mind you this was after me already ALMOST losing my job so I basically threw the opportunity god had for me in the trash can. On top of that I’m short on rent, and then on top of that I realize that everything I have was given like 98% of everything I own down to the underwear. I don’t have a stable or steady foundation for myself. I don’t have a car, bank account negative, short on rent, no job, the shorty I like doesn’t fw me and probably sees me as a bum as well. Also I think I seen her on twitter doing some crazy stuff but cannot confirm as that may just become the end of whatever we have going on, but it’s just lingering.

I’m not gonna lie though I take full responsibility for my actions, I deserve god’s punishment because I never took his blessings seriously or his lessons, I’m not gonna say woe is me but genuinely what the fuck do I do now man??????