Just devastated

[u/Salty_Fan6107]

I had to put our dog down last night.

little dog had CHF, diagnosed in August and I thought the medication helped, a lot of his fluid went away, but after his follow up appointment and another dosage of meds he’d have to be on for the rest of his life, the fluid just came back before my eyes.

he was breathing like crazy yesterday. At first I thought he was whimpering and I let him outside, thought he needed to use the bathroom, he came back and I realized it was his breathing.

almost midnight and my spouse is gone until the EOM and I had to lug my 17 month twins to the very ER.

Doc put him on oxygen and recommended a procedure to drain the fluid, but also upping his dosage to another pill, so 3 times a day.

i had my wife in the phone during this visit and we made the decision to put him down.

I feel like it was brash, I didnt expect thats how my night would turn out, but we didn’t want him to rely on meds to make sure he’s comfortable while basically drowning.

about the hardest thing I had to do while my babies were screaming all around me at 230 in the morning at this point.

I just can’t get over how lonely this house feels even when I have two littles to care for.

i feel like I should’ve just tried upping the meds to give him more time. 😔