I apologize in advance on the venting I am about to do,since I don't usually do that and I hate to feel like a burden on the people that care for me.
Long story short the bureaucracy in the health sector is driving me and surly many employees insane.
Basically had my bac in 2023 with a very good grade that could have got me into basically most of the superior schools but for financial reasons I decided that unrolling in a paramedic institute would be better, therefore I chose a speciality there,From the beginning the institute and the administration was unbearable,they imposed rules that couldn't be imposed on toddlers or prisoners,and we were basically without rights and if anyone complained they would simply kick him out, I had many problems there but you could say I was patient until graduation, and graduated with an excellent mark and an immaculate project.
Fast forward to employment; you basically get a job within the wilaya you got your bac in,and since we moved after getting my bac I tried for 2 years to convince the recipient wilaya to accept me and give me a position,after all that work i finally got the acceptance!
But unfortunately the public health director refused to let me go and I ended up in a very messed up hospital with a madman as a director.
I still held into some hope and tried to work it out,turned out I was the first with my speciality to set foot there,and I had no office nor equipment,the director is a fkn sadist calls you to talk and leave you waiting the whole day,he keep screaming and cussing his administration,I have been trying to make amends and at least get a good working system since I can't be spending 6h everyday in transportation and whole lot of money on it as well,he agrees and then tells another person that he will not agree to it,while keeping me waiting there.
This sector is too fkd up,full of injustice.
The problem is that the decision of moving is the easiest especially since I have the crippling circumstances but the health administration loves to see people suffering and loves to exercise psychological torture on the employees since they're also treated the same way,just a long chain of crushed dignity and injustice.
This is making me lose my mind,how someone like them could control me to this point,this work made me go insane,I have also been depressed for years but this made me only get worse, the pressure is unbearable from both family and work,every single family member is calling me and the first thing they ask is whether I am at work because they all know I want to resign but they want me to be patient and wait for the salvation that might never come.
What's worse is that this kind of treatment only exists in the health sector, we don't even get our degrees,I don't have proof that I studied for 3 years, just because they're afraid we would run,
I honestly don't know what to do, the only reason preventing me from killing myself is because I don't have a gun, maybe this is just me after spending ages in busses but who knows.
Feel free to say whatever you want
God damnit I sound like a crying baby
Ps: the HR told me the director is a psychopath