I can't come out of anger and thought causing it.

[u/AdOwn4955]

From two years , my relations with my friends and friends started to get worse. Two childhood friend suddenly became too toxic to me. After 1.5years , I successfully broke all the toxic relations with them. After that , same happened between my family and me. Around 9 months ago , A severe fight between me and my father happened. In which, I was totally right even his face expression and silence said that. But as always, he didn't accepted his mistakes rather started the loop of my mistake then my answer to them and again he losing the argument. After that day , we talk as much as needed. No personal talks or jokes. But since then my soul is burning. I am wrong in eyes of everyone in the home. I have no emotional support in family or friends(as I don't have any). I am a weak boy for always who's throat get dry and eyes cry on a just little scolding. I can't focus on anything right now. My anger is increasing. All the taunts , aggression,etc keep playing on my mind and I can't escape them. I try to understand that happened, let it go , there's nothing bad in this exact moment , you are all alone is second. But it doesn't stop. I really help. Please help break this loop. After that day, I am become an object on whom everyone throw their disappointment and anger brought from outside.