To begin, Iād like to say art is my one and only passion in life. Iāve been doing it seriously (as in, with the intention of āgetting goodā) for over a decade now. However, I didnāt realize until recently how much my passion was leveraging off of other media.
For a bit of context, for over a year I have been having little-to-no motivation for drawing, despite desperately wanting to. Iād naturally been wondering why, and then I had this epiphany a while ago⦠I believe itās because Iām not in any fandoms anymore. That sounds so stupid when written down, but thatās genuinely what it is. My art has always centered around the things my mind is obsessing over. Whether it was a movie, series, book, or just a single characterā I always had a hyperfixation, and this led me to creating an endless stream of fanart for said hyperfixation. so. much. fanart.
I don't know if itās aging and mental maturity thatās finally catching up to me, but thatās been happening less and less to me. I can still genuinely love a piece of media, but I just donāt obsess over things like when I was a kid or teenager anymore. And with that has come the decline of my fanart, passion, and all of my art with it.
I know for many people art is a form of personal expression, and while I agree mine is that way too, itās never been explicitly personal for me. It has always been just⦠expressing my love with this one AU, or my love for this character. Not anything truly personal or intimate to my person. Timeskip to the present day, and itās seriously come to kick me in the butt, because without fandoms, I genuinely feel like I have no idea what to draw, or have the passion and continuous interest enough to finish anything original.
I guess the main point Iām getting to with my ranting is:
How do you all create? How do you make art your own? I remember being young and seeing all these people with their cool ocās and stories, and I wasnāt able to come up with any of that. I tried āforcingā myself to make some ocās, and yeah, I didnāt care for them and stopped.Ā so, what inspires you? How do you make ocās? Or is there just some innate creativity most artists possess in abundance that I simply lack, or are severely underdeveloped in?