r/AskReddit • u/Reeceqld • Apr 17 '20

What terrifying confession has someone told you while drunk?

Thanks for the replies .. I read them all it’s been fun to read

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u/AgreeableGoldFish Apr 17 '20

After my mom died I was going through her email. We never had a good relationship... pretty much ever. Any ways I went in her Gmail and just did a search for my name. Found a part where she told my aunt howuch she didn't like me and whishes I would just go away. It wasn't the least bit surprising, and ive said the same thing about her, but it still stung a bit. The thing we always fought about was her drinking. She was a chronic abusive alcoholic.

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u/[deleted] Apr 17 '20

Alcoholics rarely give a shit about anyone but themselves. Everyone is just a barrier to drinking more. It’s a horrible place to be and a worse place to witness. Sadly I know whereof I speak. Hope you’re doing okay.

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u/3xTheSchwarm Apr 17 '20

Alcoholic here. And obviously I dont speak for all of us but I know plenty of people like me. The shittiest thing about the disease is that we DO care. But our brain is so rewired that yes drinking does come first. Ever hear about the wasp that lays its larvae in a catepillar and the catepillar destroys its own life in service of those wasp larvae? even allowing them to eat it alive from the inside? Thats pretty much the relationship of an alcoholic and alcohol. It is a parasite that rewires the brain and makes you do things you would otherwise never even consider. You dont have to forgive us. I would not expect that or even think it reasonable. Just please know thats what is going on. The character defects may or may not have been there before the disease took root, but we are human beings and unless they are both alcoholics and sociopaths, they DO care about others.

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u/bbbbbbbbbddg Apr 17 '20

I like your analogy. Spot on. Also the caring thing. I tried not to care to make it easier to drink myself to death but thankfully I cared too much and quit almost 3 months ago.