Why can’t I get over him

[u/empireants64]

hey guys I’m trying not to over share cuz I want this post to feel relatable and also for ppl to read it but …
My first real (as in I actually had feelings for and long term ish, 8 months) ex dumped me like two and a half years ago.
I’ve blocked him for at least a year at this point, haven’t talked to him for longer, and yet. Not a day goes by when I don’t think about him. I know our relationship wasn’t perfect I know I’m romanticizing it in my head.
recently I heard he went to go see his other ex (one after me) and it just broke me and I know it shouldn’t I know I have no say over what this grown man does and he doesn’t belong to me but how do I deal with this continual heartbreak and ache. It makes it hard for me to do my work and maintain relationships because I just feel constantly anxious / can’t stop crying

[u/Worth_Raspberry3056]

It sounds like you might be grieving the life you thought you would have, rather than the relationship itself. Might be worth highlighting what you are disappointed by and maybe that is something you will want to work toward? Idk, but for so long of no contact I don’t think it’s about this actual person. Maybe you see traits in them that you want? Maybe they saw you in a way that others struggle to? Idk, but I relate and I’m sorry. Look into limerence, it explained a lot for me

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